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“Lost to myself, nothing stares back at me. My reflection no longer a person I know. I'm lost in the maze my mind created. Alone in the world that I updated.”
-me
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BladedPsycho
06/29/22
I beg you to miss me
I’m lonely again. And the world is quiet today, But this is loud. There is nothing to hide behind And nothing to drown it out, My heart just hurts, the loneliness keeps munching away. It is like a hungry caterpillar Destroying every leaf in its path. How long can I wait for you be...
BladedPsycho
06/28/22
Cling to me
Your touch no longer lingers on my neck. Your kisses no longer shudder down my back. I close my eyes to a darkness I have known. My close friend, my mind, come dance with me. Come lead me towards unhappiness. Lead me to the cage of my own making, lock me within the confines of my own h...
BladedPsycho
02/28/22
What does it mean to be home?
This empty room used to be filled with swirls of colour and a patched quilt made with love. - now the wall is filled with the ghosts of the memories that used to hang in frames all shoved beneath sunless cardboard.
BladedPsycho
02/25/22
Sometime, in the future, perhaps, at some point.
I go to bed with you on my mind and lay my head against the pillow that should be yours. I turn on the light at the end of my bed because your void leaves an anxious absence. I long for your warmth, a warmth I know I will have sometime, in the future, as God wills, perhaps, ...
BladedPsycho
12/26/21
The Door to the Open Ocean
1…2…3 in…out…in…out Stay in this moment. Right here. Just breathe. 1…2…3 in…out…in…out Focus here. This is what matters. This is where you must live. In…out…in…out 1…2…3 Don’t think…about what you’ve shoved in the closet. Don’t think…about the whir of thoughts inside your head Don’t...
BladedPsycho
08/14/21
At odds with the moon
I go into my head the moment we argue Leave my body and fight to breathe. Am I breathing? How did it become an act of conscious effort? An effort that feels immense. If I let my reaction engulf me, would I ever be able to escape? How do your words have so much power? What ifs circle this...
BladedPsycho
03/31/21
Shall I Ask You Another Question?
I can still smell your kisses Still feel your teeth grab my skin I can still feel your shivers under my lips Your ear dragging between my teeth. The aftertaste of you still lingers on my tongue Your smell of cedar wood and fallen leaves Still lingers in my nose I catch the scents as I r...
BladedPsycho
03/26/21
I Promise This Is Real
It’s that moment you feel so close maybe you shouldn’t be watching So intimate you feel wrong for interrupting You can see those moments of beauty but can’t touch. What is an intimate love that I should know it? What is your love that I should feel it, your hands against my body; your he...
BladedPsycho
03/25/21
Manon’s Journals 8
Journal 8 Dear Aranea, I sit here, eyes red, I...I don’t know what to say. I’m not surprised, I’m not confused and yet I am all in the same breath. I wonder how I traveled so far down this staircase, so far down. I thought I could never reach hell. I thought I’d stayed just a step...
BladedPsycho
03/25/21
Manon’s Journals 7
(Massive trigger warning, expresses trauma from R in a poetic way that shows how’s she’s trying to deal with it and heal from it.) Journal 7 (trigger warning) Dear Aranea, What song will they sing for me when I am gone? When the circle of life is complete what will they sing for me? Who...
BladedPsycho
03/24/21
Manon’s Journals 6
(Trigger warning self hard and abuse slightly referenced) Journal 6 Dear Aranea, All I have are my memories to live on. I live on the memories of you. I our dance. I your quiet bubbly laughter. I your beautiful dark hair. I can picture ever inch of your fa...
BladedPsycho
03/21/21
Manon’s Journals 5
(Trigger warning, talk of abuse) Journal 5 Dear Aranea, I feel so dark today. Like a numb little flower that’s been trampled. Like all that is good in the world is gone. I feel like I don’t know who I am. Where I fit in the world. What is real and what is not? It’s like the world ...
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Ayooo, everyone is ded and the ones who were ded are very ded
Blade hiii :eyes: :eyes: :eyes:
Hey Kei!
Blade! :D
Reply to: BladedPsycho
Doing great uwu
You?
Should we take this to DMs—
Reply to: naxie
Yeah we can. And I’m doing well generally.
Reply to: BladedPsycho
Yay!
This is gonna be short and sweet but happy new year! I'm proud of everything you've written, done, and whatever else. I'm just
I'm proud of you okay
Words are starting to fail me, so I better stop while im ahead. Happy new year :) - sae
:) happy new year Sae
The day is almost over, but Merry Christmas!
Merry Christmas Sae :)
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I-
It's a Christmas miracle you're online/answered
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Heh, I think I have notifications on for here so I saw it :)