I woke up this morning and you weren’t there.
You didn’t stick your head in my door, to check if I’m okay.
You’re gone, I don’t know where.
No bouncing, no biting, no asking for play.
I lay there in the silence, staring out the window.
The colour of your fur reflected by the light.
My eyes felt heavy, my heart so low.
I’m on my knees praying that you’re alright.
Where you’ve gone, I don’t know.
I fell out of bed and limped to my mirror.
Without you between my legs, I felt empty, my dear.
Staring into the glass, my lip began to shake.
My legs gave out, I fell on my ass.
Without you there to save me, my heart began to break.
Crawling to the door, I gave up halfway there.
For I saw your basket sitting atop my chair.
Empty. Barren. Defeated.
You weren’t there. You weren’t seated.
Like a punch to the gut, I crawled into a ball.
And there I rocked in my rut, wanting to end it all.
I cried and cried, wishing I had died.
I can’t lose you, not you too.
You’re the one keeping me here. The fear, it’s back.
My soul is beginning to crack. The dark thoughts have returned.
My will to live, has burned, to a crisp.
My happiness, nothing more than a wisp, caught in the air.
I can’t bear it anymore.
The door, just out of reach.
Taunts me through the glass.
In the grass, I see a rustle
And in my body, tenses every muscle.
Is that you? No. Just a breeze.
It’s with rue, my heart is laden.
As my soul dies, I grab what I’ll need in.
Helping me succeed in what I had failed in.
Long ago.
Without you here, it has no meaning.
As ice flows through my decrepit body, I smile.
I’ll see you soon buddy.
No more Silence, for a while.
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