Forgotten

I’m sad

But that’s okay

I’ll just smile through the bad

And it will go away

Except

It never does

It fills my brain with fuzz

Pouring rain

Relentless because

I’m too pretentious

I just want friends

But no matter how hard

I try

It is to no end

So I do what I do best

And cry

Alone

Worn down to the bone

All on my own

My seeds of sorrow sown

Deep

I’m going to sleep, now

Counting sheep

And maybe

I’m not sure how

But maybe

I’ll wake with a smile

For the first time in a while

Surrounded by friends

That won’t leave

When I’m broken, in a pile

But then again

Maybe not

And I’ll wake in pain

Buried in rot

The peace I sought

Out of reach

As the world sucks away my life

Like a leech