⚖ — the weight of both ˎˊ˗

Hey, I am Rus, and I am back with something personally inspired by my stuff to deal with once again. I think I am getting into the habit of doing this hah.

I guess be warned cause it is dark-themed, and the rest of those who stayed.. enjoy? heh.

I hate myself..

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My body screams out,

"I love you" as it shakes in anger.

anger that isn't mine but born from the hate I've carved

into my soul, and further.

Every tremble in my arms,

Every crack in my voice,

Knowing how this will end.

Each cut I made,

Every hurt I caused,

They haunt me and haunt you too,

Like shadows I can't outrun,

neither do I deserve to,

till the very end.

Regret and guilt follow me,

Like a shadow that never lets go.

Just like how I never let you go.

I hate myself as much as I love you,

caught between the two…

But even in this darkness,

I still love you.

even if my soul just wants to disappear,

trapped in the weight of both and through.

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                                                     ..as much as I love you.

I am gonna lay down and drown in my emotions now lol.

Take care.