When The World Turns Upside Down

Disorder chosen: Anxiety

When I get anxiety it’s like a brick hits me.

It will start with my thoughts starting to go faster than I can think.

To the point my brain feels like some city highway that you can only see a blur of ing cars on.

Then comes the fidgeting.

The overwhelming need to move and keep myself in motion no matter what.

This is always followed by the shaking.

Now I have to sit still because if I don’t people notice how violently my body is shaking.

My jaw is shut tight so my teeth won’t chatter.

As I sit silently.

Trying hard to regain control.

Sometimes I’m lucky enough that I will.

But there are times that I don’t.

That’s when the stomach pains and headaches start.

And they won’t go away.

So I sit quietly.

And wait for it to .

It’s only when I start to feel myself having trouble breathing, that I excuse myself.

I’m unfocused.

The world around my seems to unstable and moving.

I lean against the wall for and on.

Hoping that my thoughts will start coming through again.

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