This is the first poem I’ve ever written and would like some . It’s kinda long, though. And expressive. Not sure how expressive. But I’m pretty sure you could call it expressive.

Where did she go?

“Where did the sweet little girl we used to know go?”

I heard her plead.

With a saddened expression,

Fake as can be.

I could not muster a response,

For as I didn’t know,

As this girl they ‘used to know’ never existed

Never once breathed, never once blinked.

It was another hand reaching out for help

But somehow, this non-existent girl still sat

At the top of the charts of the memories of me.

Held by them, for every time they pleaded.

For it all to be just another game of who could keep up

Up with what? A silly facade? Another girl dancing on the stage?

Her eyes so bright, yet mine so dull.

Her smile easily made, mine almost non-existent now.

But how, after all that I’ve proved?

Can I not get the right message to you?

I’m in need of help and you still can’t see it?

That every time I have spoken, I was silenced by greed?

“I don’t have time for this!” You constantly cry

Creating a confusion that I struggle, am I really that selfish?

And not at all what I should be, but am I?

But if I’m selfish for almost never acting out

What makes that of you? Someone who always has anger to spout from their mouths

So quick to judge and yell and accuse

Yet it seems you’ve turned the page

I am yet again the mouse in this chase

How can you be liked by your friends?

How can you still be good to those strangers?

How can you still be nice to them?

While I’m the one who’s in danger.

In danger of what, I cannot tell

For I don’t know what’s hidden down deep in my heart

In fear I will get punished, it was pushed deep down

Now it can’t be resurfaced, but somehow I still

feel it.

An ever so gentle, yet strong pang in my chest

So there’s the answer for the question you always ask me,

Where did she go?

I need not answer, for she is here. All heart, mind, and soul.

And love that she shall not give anymore.

Now you know, please stop asking.