Wanton vanity

I’m not a narcissist..

I’m not it’s just..

It’s just..

Just how I am vain,

I think myself above others,

as more capable,

naturally more desirable.

Just how I am deceptive,

I play out social experiments,

to gain insight, to find patterns,

I find the best ways to each persons favor,

I am loved by everyone :)

Just how I am cavalier,

I am quite beyond guilty,

I walk among men each day,

men who will never know,

I find my place in society,

smiling, charming, knowing.

Just how I am crooked,

I play favorites,

quite unjustly, and openly,

I am loyal to my own,

and cruel to all others.

Just as I am afflicted,

I have been betrayed,

I have seen troubles beyond measure,

I have died at the hands of my own,

I have survived by nothing I know.

Just as I am the affliction,

I am cruel and I am cunning,

I am cold and I am concise,

I am inconsistent and I am contrite.

I am not a narcissist,

It’s just,

I’ve earned my way to my keep,

I have bared the burden,

I had to learn this to live,

to control and divert,

to keep distant and disconnect.

I’m not a narcissist,

I just,

wanted to stay alive,

once upon a time.

Image is not mine ~