My life

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Hey guys todays post is a bit different from what i usually do and thats because not many of you know alot about me so i thought i would share my life so far. Also there will be quotes added into this just for a little more feel.

Hope you enjoy.

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Some viewer's may find this uncomfitable so like i say in almost all my post please do take full reaponsibilty for your actions. You have been warned.

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So where shall i start?

Sad parts of my life

My first year of school was okay i guess i met 2 friends we were together for a long time but except, they weren't my friends and i was the one left in the dirt but i coped with it for a long time because i know that if it didnt look like i had friends then i would be the laughing stock. Truthfully my mum would pick me up from school to see me upset every single day because my "friends" were mean.

Anyway fast forward to year 3 things got worse these friends of mine were hard to handle and the teachers did nothing but say that it was tattle taleing. So i moved classes. Now, your probably thinking, well there is no more sadness anymore. Wrong.But we will get onto that soon.

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Soon after, my neighbours moved out, new neighbours moved in straight after. Me and the girl next door became friends and i thought finaly i have met somone who can like me for who i am. We were friends for 3 years and did everything together until i found out that she was the one tallking behind my back and spreading rumors about me.

To this day before i found out about the rumors we were in this popular group in school my mum calls them the blondies and funny enough i was the only brown haired in the group it got bad real quick. As for starters, i started compareing myself to them thinking i wasnt good enough. So i ended up spending most of my break time alone because i figured being alone made me more of a happy person.

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My first day of high school i was excited bexause i could finally make and create a new life for myself i figure that the older you get the more mature you are. I had met a friend already when we were in our transitioning week so i was pretty confident. Well i mean kind of. I am that type of kid that is really anti social and i really didnt like my face and i struggled to get up in the morning and motivate myself . There was this one guy that was in all my classes and he would make fun of my forehead and the spots on my face and to this day that wednesday afternoon, in my last class, was the worst day of my life.

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Now we go onto year 8 i am still with my weeb friends but things happen and i manage to loose all of them. Now your probably saying to yourself. "well done BMO you lost your friends"

Well here is the story:

I met some friends on amino and i would go on there group all of the time untill i realised what they were saying wasnt what friends would usually say. They would call me fat, ugly, spotty face, untill i had ebough of and dmed them on insta and they didnt like. One of them told me to kill myself and so did his bestfriend.

I didnt tell my mum untill a week later becauee i didnt want to worry her. Anyway, i tried to tell my friends in school but it didnt work out so well. One of my friends didnt think that i was right infront of them and desided to tallk behind my back saying why is she saying this stuff all she wants is attention and its not a big deal.

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All i can say is, is that no matter how hard i tried for people no matter how much effort i put into making their day alot better, nobody was there for me. People dont understand how much pain i went through and i am truly amazed at myself on how i am still living.

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Less sad parts

I love my parents so much and i truly dont know what i would do without them. We go out6 together once a week when we have time, infact it my mother birthday tomorrow so if you want, say happy birthday to my mum in the comments.

My nan is the best everytime i go there i get fed to the max i am surprised i am not fat from the amount of food she give me.

I am very grateful for my parents i just dont think they understand.

Being at home has made me just a little more happier because i dont have to worry about people judging me and i dont have to worry on teachers picking on me.

I do my work and then i watch kdramas thats how my life is planned out.

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Okay guys i am sorry for the depressing story i am not very good with positive words. Quick note:i am not looking for any simpify and dont feel bad for me in the comments. I only put this out there because i wanted to see if people could relate.

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