Disappointment

Why is it that everything is my fault?

You call me the family disappointment

I'm lazy and I can't do anything.

Can't you see what you say hurts?

I guess not. It doesn't matter as long as you're happy right?

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You ask me why I have depression.

You tend to think I can just be happy.

I say I don't know. But you're the reason.

You've been destroying me over and over for years.

And you never had a damn clue.

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I can't tell you because you'll call me an attention whore again.

A father with a hatred toward his child.

You act like you treat me like royalty.

How? When you barely treat me as a person?

I'm younger and not as strong so I'm weak right?

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Because you're apparently a man.

You're a dick for thinking that's okay.

"I'm big you're little. You're just some weak little girl I will always be stronger than you and you can't do anything about it"

That's why I will never love you as a father.

You hate me so why does that matter?

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You have to act like you love me.

I've tried repeatedly to get along with you.

But I can see the hatred in your eyes.

The fire inside. I'm just waiting.

Waiting for the day I can leave.

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And even then. I'll still only be a disappointment.

You'll always think of me as your little fuck up.

People think you adore me.

Truth is you despise me.

I'll always disappoint you.

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One day I'll be gone. Will you miss me?

Will you regret treating me less than who I am?

Or will you be happy you won't have to deal with me anymore?

Will you be happy you'll never see me again?

You lost the love from your child years ago.

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I told you. You will never get any love or trust from me again.

That was 4 years ago and it's still true.

The pure sight of you makes me angry.

All because I'm only a disappointment to you right?

All because you will never love me for me.

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All Because you turn every issue of mine

All into jokes.

I'm just a disappointment to you.

I can't wait for the day I get to leave.

I'm your fuck up of a child.

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Sincerely your lovely fuck up

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