Father did I deserve this?

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The following content contains topics of depression. Read with caution.

The words that slipped through those lips of yours.

Thinking my whole life is a joke.

Thinking that me being so young it wouldn't bother me?

That child getting told that he should die?

That he doesn't deserve a lover?

Calling him pathetic and worthless.

Since the age of 12.

He stopped trusting you.

He felt betrayed. You couldn't handle the fact.

Because of your action he hates you.

Instead of treating him well.

You treated him worse.

"Show me some respect"

But why would you deserve his respect?

Constantly treating him awful?

As You're the reason for his depression.

He's been depressed for years.

All because of you. And he doesn't dare expose it.

As he is an actual good person who doesn't want to destroy you.

Not like you'd care anyways.

You never cared about him.

You act like it. You try to " love" him.

But he won't let you. You play innocent.

These marks left on his mind.

These memories carved into his brain.

He can't bring himself to forgive.

Now he has one last question.

Father. Did I really deserve this?

His words slipped through.

And his answer was always

Yes and even worse.

They're just words they say.

But words hurt and have damaged me for years.

Especially from my own father.

Father did I deserve your hatred?

Father did I deserve the attempts?

Father. Did I deserve all of this pain?

His answer has always been

Yes and even worse.

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