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[Yellow]

[warning; cursing]

i’m sorry for my negativity

for my attitude and lack of interest

for my constant complaints

i’m sorry

i’m sorry i’m not perfect

that i like the color black

that i like to curse and yell

that i can’t be “happy” all the time

that i’m not like other girls who go out and have fun

that i sleep in late and can’t bother to get up

i’m really sorry

i’m sorry for being so quiet

for being introverted and anxious

for staying home and away from public areas

for hiding in my own little corner away from everyone

for hiding my existence in anyway i can

for ignoring the world

i’m so fucking sorry

i’m sorry that i can’t open up

that i can’t give much of a damn

that i bitch and moan over stupid things and chase others away

that i don’t even try to be social

i’m not sorry anymore

i’m sorry for saying sorry

for not meaning my words

for not giving a shit if i hurt your feelings

for being a bitch

i won’t be sorry for being me

but, i’ll still say the words

even if i don’t mean them

even if it’s only for everyone to shut the fuck up

“i’m sorry”

maybe i am genuine about it

i suppose i’ll never know

perhaps i’ll never say it again