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▸mindless rambling◂

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▸Can I just say?

That the holiday season really seems to bring me down?

I’m not sure why.

But, I’d love to hide under the covers of my bed, feeling ever so worthless.

Wishing it would just end.

▸I’m no poet.

Nor am I an artist, writer, none of it.

I am just a teenager trying to get through life.

And my mind loves to run wild with the darker parts of my thoughts.

▸I’d rather lie in bed and simply think rather than fake smiles and pretend.

I’d rather shut my phone off and shut out the world.

I’d rather be left alone.

▸It’s always a debate in the morning.

Should I wake up?

Or shall I keep dreaming, victim to whatever hell my mind conjures up?

It’s always exhausting to be human, awake or asleep anyway.

▸Nighttime is when I’m most active.

Yet, I’m always so tired.

Day and night, I’m fighting the urge to shut my eyes and sleep.

But this is the kind of fatigue that sleep cannot fix.

▸It’s late.

My head aches.

And my eyes threaten to fall shut.

Perhaps it’s time I let my body rest while my mind races.

▸I wish I could live without sleep sometimes...