I'm doing days 18 and 19 of the love yourself challenge.
Day 18: I need to forgive one of my ex-friends. She has faked schizophrenia, depression, anxiety, panic attacks, and being abused by someone. It turns out, that someone never existed. She's told me that she would kill herself to get attention from me. She's also faked a miscarriage right after the same thing happened to my other friend. And this just recently happened: I told her that I didn't want to hang out with her anymore and she seemed alright with it. Then, she slapped me in the face and told people that I beat her up, I didn't even touch her. Right after, she started telling people that the reason she doesn't hang out with me anymore is because I made fun of her illnesses and told her to go hang herself. I would NEVER EVER EVER, tell someone to go hurt themselves, I don't wish pain on anybody. But whatever, they can believe what they want, my "friend" knows what she did was, and IS, wrong. I could write pages about this but I'm choosing not to. I need to forgive her because it happened and there's nothing I can do about it, all I can do is change how I react to the situation and I'm doing my best to handle it appropriately. I probably won't forgive her for a long time, especially faking the miscarriage after it happened to my friend, no one hurts my friends. But eventually I will.
Day 19: One of the memories that make me feel good is just hanging out with my family and my birthday. Both are really good things to me and I think every day is a miracle and a blessing, I hope to have more amazing memories during the end of this and the year to come.
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