visceral (07.30.2020)

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..

i'm sorry

i'm only bones right now;

i can't be

the skin and flesh

that you need.

but blood still runs

through these veins

and arteries that curve

around the cartilage

and sometimes

the thrumming is the only thing

reminding me

that my heart

is technically still alive.

you're always the first

to take my hand

but every time

i notice the hesitation in your eyes

when you realize you've

almost forgotten who

(what)

exactly

i am.

i'm sorry.

i never learnt to want in halves

but i know

that it's all you can afford

to give me.

(i don't mind.)

..

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uh hi. been a moment. life's been hella hectic lately. or maybe i just haven't bothered with anything lmao. anyways, i dragged this one out with every last ounce of energy left and i absolutely hate it hahahaha.

promise there's better stuff coming just gimme a hot sec to get back into it :')

[photograph is my own]