no poety. just a existential crisis i guess

im only sharing an idea. today i realized... well... nothing matters ? like really, ask yourself "does anything matter"? this is gonna sound stupid but me and my boyfriend who i lost everything to if you know what i mean we just broke up... and some people say "everyhting happens for a reason" but thats not true. nothing happens for a reaosn but that doesnt mean nothing good can come out of it. he said what if justin bieber came up to you and was like "hey youre pretty hot"... idk what to do. i really really really loved him. i dont hardly ever catch feelings for people and if im being honest he wasnt the best looking but for some reason despite all of that i felt so happy with him. like his hair was amazing and soft and he had the cutest dimples. pretty pink lips. but hes not mine anymore. but even if he was what would it matter. it would only make me happy. it would solve 1/8billion peoples sadness. our kind has been roaming this earth for so long and we have answers to questions about anything. like really hard algebra questions and stuff about science and why do bananas rot and how heavy is gravity and models for gravity and the mass of mass and we have telescopes and microscopes and we have technology and science and physcis and the human body language even cat body language even bird body language. we have so many answers to questions most huamns dont even ask. but the most common questions every human eventually asks is "whats the point of it all?" and "where do we gp after it ends?" and no one has a straight foward answer for it. maybe its different for everyone. maybe tehre is no point and maybe we go nowhere ans science just found a way for us to never figure that out until its too late. idk. i really just want to talk to someone about this