to them :sparkles:

Okay, so I don’t know what I’m even writing, let alone who’s gonna read it.

I guess I just needed a way to release all the pent up feelings I have.

So, I guess this is a letter to my crush.

Not that they’ll ever see it anyways.

┊　　┊　　┊　　┊

┊　　┊　　┊　　✶

┊　　┊　　✦

┊　　✶

✦

║   ❝I told you I loved you and you asked why. ║

║I simply replied with: ║

║why not? ❞ ║

☾ ⋆*･ﾟ:⋆*･ﾟ:✧*⋆.*:･ﾟ✧.: ⋆*･ﾟ: .⋆

I was debating writing this, because I wondered what would happen, if by some crazy way. You actually ended up reading this.

God that would be embarrassing.

I’m gonna go off on a limb here and assume that you’re never gonna read this.

Ever.

So here goes nothing:

I love you.

A lot more than as a friend (which should be blindly obvious).

And honestly it’s kind of cheesy.

That excited, butterfly’s in my stomach feeling I get when you text me, or the happy sensation I have when you laugh at a joke I made.

And then there’s the blush that rises to my cheeks when you compliment me.

I’m always terrified you’re gonna notice that and figure me out.

I don’t even know why I’m afraid of telling you.

It wouldnt be the first time someone’s ditched me.

Maybe that’s what scares me.

You’re one of the few people in the world I genuinely trust, and I guess I’m terrified of losing you.

Because, people say it’s not gonna cause a drift.

But I’m not stupid.

Of course it will.

To make matters worse, I kind of don’t know what to do.

After seeing how badly you reacted to someone else asking you out, that kinda terrified me too.

And I mean, you have a crush anyways, so why should it matter?

Shouldn’t I just move on?

Well that’s the thing - I kinda can’t.

Believe me, I’ve tried. Many times.

And it always ends with a panic attack and a breakdown.

So option 1, down the drain.

Option 2 would be to just tell you, but no way in hell is that happening. I can’t lose you. That would completely break me

So now I’m stuck at this weird crossroads thing and I don’t know what to do.

But whatever I guess

It’s nothing new

✦　 .            *     要     ° . •        ˚                 ✦

˚       *.      *        · 记

·             得      · 　　           · ★

✦　 .            *          ° . •    不    ˚                 ✦

·             · ★ 能

· ˚   · 　 ˚            ✹ 认

·                   · 　　          · ★ 输

✦　 .            *          ° . •        ˚                 ✦

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✦　 .            *     要     ° . •        ˚                 ✦

˚       *.      *        · 记

·             得      · 　　           · ★

✦　 .            *          ° . •    不    ˚                 ✦

·             · ★ 能

· ˚   · 　 ˚            ✹ 认

·                   · 　　          · ★ 输

✦　 .            *          ° . •        ˚                 ✦

Sometimes I dream you want me to.

But who am I kidding. That’s false

Still, it’s nice to live in that fake reality sometimes.

I love everything about you, from your caring instinct to your goofy smile, and your ability to crack a joke at the most awkward of times.

You care about others so much, and it’s seriously inspiring.

And I love you.

I could go on and on, but that would drag on forever.

But I’m not going to do that

Whoops.

g off,

:sparkles: 𝓂𝒾𝓀𝒶 :grey_exclamation:

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