Sometimes I wanna delete all my old posts in my social medias bc they make me feel bad, dysphoric. But sometimes I’m ok with them!? I mean, they’re part of my history. Even if I’m not that person right now, in the past I was that person.
Every time the urge to delete everything comes up I just take a breath and stay away from my phone and go do other things to distract myself until I feel better.
I know I could just delete everything, I mean, they’re mine and I can delete if I want but that feels a bit scary, feels like I’m giving up, feels like I’m surrendering to my bad thoughts and I get scared of in the end feeling even more dysphoric bc then I’ll have to hold up to this new “image” of myself my mind wants to create.
I feel like as long as my old posts and pics are still out in the open I can “grow” without thinking I’m not actually making any progress.
Idk maybe one day I’ll erase everything....but for now I’ll let them be
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Sometimes I just want to get rid of my past as a whole
I share this same sentiment... Especially since cutting my hair. I hate that it’s sometimes hard to look at myself before or after. Because our gender identity is only part of the whole identity of us... I had to remind myself that: “I am the god of my own destiny.” I am not this body. I am not my hair. I am not the parts of me I loathe. I am not the parts of me I love. I am not my role in society. I am just Me. And the Me I have always been is far greater than the freedom of expression could ever allow. There is no before or after, you’re always you! Do what makes you happiest and grow how you need to~ You’re the god-being of your own destiny! More power!! ☮ :heart_decoration: 🕉