to trans/ nonbinary people, I have a question for you
I have been noticing one bad behavior(?) I have and I’d like to know if other people have felt this too...
so I’m genderqueer and I try presenting more masculine but of course most of the time dysphoria keeps yelling inside my head
“you don’t look androgynous/ masculine you just look like a girl lol”
and I noticed when I see people who are afab and look really masculine (doesn’t matter if they’re trans or not tbh) i feel extremely jealous and sometimes get really anxious around them, like I get so anxious I feel nauseated and it’s kinda hard to be around them bc I keep feeling they look more androgynous/ masculine than me so I probably look even more like a girl around them :/
This makes me feel really bad because those people are just existing and I feel so bad :((
Does anyone else get this? This like jealousy mixed with anxiety or whatever
Please tell me I’m not alone in this lmao
Edit: thank you to everyone who answered!
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Oh yes I do many times.... but then I try to have a positive attitude and think we are all different and not to compare myself with others that'll only lead to being upset and anxious
In honesty I get the same way at points when I want to be more androgynous or masculine because I get jealous but I one thing and that is that although I may feel dysphoric others will not define who I am
Honestly same i get so jealous then i feel really dysphoric :'(
Yeah kind of. Depends tbh but i dunno on what. I just have these uncalled for random "waves" of jealousy, anxiety and dysphoria. Especially around guys and sometimes when I think about how e.g. other trans friends are already in the middle of their transition and I'm still that confused mess
I felt the same way in the time between coming out and getting my hormones. So yes. But as longer I took the hormons the better I feel about it and after the top surgery even better...