So, time for how I label myself.
I consider myself as biromantic and aegosexual.
Biromantic, I know it since my 17. I live in a small village where it's common knowledge that you have to date boys, marry them and have kids. So, I never thought about my feelings, I was sure I was your average hetero, even if I always looked at girls the same way I looked at guys.
When I was 17, I fell in love with a girl. I was so shook. It took time for me to it it, and I thought that a girl can't love a girl and that I needed to become a boy to love her. Stupid idea, right ? But this situation was so new to me, it didn't fit in my standards, I was totally lost.
Now, I have more confidence. I dated boys (it never last long, I wonder why... My maximum with a boy is 2 months) and I dated girls (with one relationship that lasted one year and a half, since this relationship ended (2 years ago), I stopped dating). Sometimes I wonder if I'm panromantic, but I like the biromantic label better, so I keep it =).
I'm also aegosexual. That's why most of my relationships with boys ended quickly.
I like yaoi, erotic stuffs, but I don't want to do what I see or read. I don't really like to be touched, either.
I found out I was like that because after one year and a half of relationship, I was satisfied with kissing, holding hands,...
I never thought I wasn't interested in sex before. Like I said, in my small village you are expected to have kids and kids don't come from birds, so I always thought that one day or another, I will have to do it, it never occured to me that I had a choice. A bad experience made me understand that I can say no, that I should if I don't want to do it. And yeah, even if I really love the person I'm with, I'm not interested in doing sexual things.
At first, I thought I was asexual, but I know I'm not.
So, here are my flags =).
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