❥ 𝒍𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒐 𝒎𝒚𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇 || 𝒇𝒆𝒂𝒕. 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐠𝐞

:sunny: ╭━━━━━━━━━━━━━╮ :sunny:

:seedling: tw!! brief indication of sh, ed, depression, anxiety and abuse :seedling:

:sunny: ╰━━━━━━━━━━━━━╯ :sunny:

current age | 18

:cloud:

directed age | 7+

𝑑𝑒𝑎𝑟, 𝑗𝑎𝑦...

❥࿐✧༉

ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ

Hey, kid. I honestly don’t know where to start. I want to put things into you’d understand. You aren’t Einstein, but that’s not really your fault mostly.

❥

Let me start by telling you that you’re a lot braver than you know. You braver than I am now. You wouldn’t understand if I told you that you’re father isn’t a great person, and that’s ok cause I want you to be loving and forgiving like you always are. When he hurts you, it’s not your fault. When he hurts them all, it’s not your fault. It’s his.

❥

Being homeschooled isn’t easy. It hurts being lonely, but the kids not hanging out with you; that think you’re weird...they’re kids just like you. They make mistakes. I wish I could tell you it’d get easier, but it hasn’t.

❥

There’s a lot of things I regret. A lot of things I wish I could tell you not to do. Listen to me, you are stronger than that blade. You’re stronger than that will to get slimmer. Also, I know you’re guilty and feel bad, but forgiving your dad won’t do anything. He doesn’t feel bad. He doesn’t care. He lies to you.

❥

God...there’s so many things I wanna tell you, but to be honest I feel bad sending you a letter telling you that nothing gets better. I wish I were in a better place, but the advice I’d give you now isn’t healthy. I need you to make the choices you think are right cause that’s all you can do. You’re beautiful, ok? You’re not bad. You’re not insane. You’re not evil. You’re not disgusting. And it’s all normal. I promise.

• sincerely, yourself •

(•̀ᴗ•́)و love ya lil guy

❥࿐✧༉

#lettertomyselfchallenge