First Year on Staff

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Welcome back

Today I am doing a post/blog that I have been working on for a while now

It is a very important moment for me

As I have hit my first year on staff.

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The beginning.

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In sometime of 2018, I started out not wanting to be on staff, I looked at it and didn’t really know what it entailed and to be honest, with it being such a big community, I was scared. Well, one day I saw welcoming applications come out and I had heard that it was a good place to start.

My application was rejected and I didn’t get it. I didn’t know if I had done something that wasn’t right, my minutes were up, my message was good (Least I thought it was) but still I didn’t get it. From that point, I convinced myself that I wasn’t right for staff and that I would never make it.

For a long time I saw applications for different teams come out and I just didn’t bother. Until I met someone, and they know who they are, but I met them. They were on staff and I ended up in a group chat with 2 people on the same team. I asked them what it was about and so they explained it to me.  

I knew from then on, I wanted to be on this team but it didn’t look like they were putting applications out any time soon. Now I didn’t get onto the team the “Normal” way as you could say. My name was put forward to the leaders as to Event team. I need at least 3 leaders to vote yes to get on the team. To my knowledge I had at least 4/5 leaders vote yes. I was told the next day and I was jumping with joy, I had finally made it onto a staff team

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January 30th 2019 I made it. And oh my god I was so scared.

I was so nervous. Like so nervous. I didn't know everyone par a few people.

However, they were all so so welcoming and so friendly to me. I settled quickly and soon my nerves eased. If I ever needed help, I could go to any of them and they would help me

This was my first staff post

LGB Cream Winners

Honestly I must have had it checked 3/4 times because I was so scared of messing it up. I really have to thank her for putting up with me because honestly I was a full mess trying to get everything right. And wow. It was. So, many of you can imagine what it feels like to get something right on the first time. And there. I was part of event team and I moved forward.

Then....ing teams.

This was a scary thought. Event team was coming to an end and they wanted to the event and editor and at the time I didn't know what to think. I said. Sure I'm up for trying it. It meant, or at least felt, our work load was about to get a mound bigger and in a sense it did. I create two posts one week and create posts challenge related the next week as well as other duties as a member of the editor team. What was even more scary is that half my event team left and I didn't know anyone that well. I panicked again as they ed the teams but really it was quite relaxed as everyone got to know each other.

Editor's was one of the best moments in my staff life because I was so set in just staying there. It was comfortable and I opened up to people there. This team became more family like and soon the ball was rolling with what we were doing and we became the elders as new people ed

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To Editor's

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This is a message to the whole team. New, old and even those who are no longer part of the team but those who I have had a chance to work with over the 8 months I was on editor's. You all are amazing, I know the work you do week in and week out, you all work so hard every week bringing out new content and challenges. Although I am not an OG member of editor's like some of you have been, I was there when the team's ed and was with you at the beginning of that. I got to work with older editor and boy have I learned a lot from you guys.

I can't say I particularly had a mentor on editor's but Kyle you have always been an inspiration to the editor team. So if you're reading thank you, even though you haven't taught me directly just by seeing the content you post, is something I've managed to follow and grow and learn myself. I would have never gotten better at writing or aesthetics without this team and as a whole you all really do bring something amazing to the community

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Journalists

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After working on Editor's for so long, I noted that I wanted to another team. At first I didn't know if I was even going to be able to handle a second team, feeling like we did so much already but this time it just felt right. I had applied before but I deleted the application. Do I regret it? Yeah. But I also feel like it was the wrong time and I was only applying because of someone else and not because I actually wanted too.

Still. At the end of June 2019 applications came round again and I applied for it. I was hesitant about ing another team but I knew if it was any other team I thought I could handle it was the journalist team.

I got in!!!! I was so so so so happy that I had managed because I was so sure I wasn't going to get in. But for some reason they liked me :joy:

The first week was really rough and I wasn't used to a team being double the size of my own and it felt very hectic and confusing to begin with. I the meeting coming around for the first time and I had 2 panic attacks. One before the meeting and one during the meeting. I felt like it was so crowded, it really wasn't something I was used too.

However in time, after a few weeks I soon became used to how it all worked and it really is no where near as bad as I thought it was. I really enjoy journalists, all the work that they do.

JoJo

Thank you for picking me up when I fell being a journalist. I almost actually quit because I didn't think I could handle the pressure of two teams yet you were there guiding me through any questions I had about anything. You have been my journalist mentor and I wouldn't be here without you.

Lotte

You have helped me on the tough nights where I had panic attacks and also worked as my mentor too when I first ed. You again picked me up and helped me through the times I didn't think I was gonna make it, or when I felt like I just wasn't good enough for the team.

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To The Journalist Team

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This reaches out to everyone who I have worked with, past and present on the Journalist team, so if you're reading. Know this goes to you as well. You guys / girls / non binary pals are honestly such an amazing team, I work day in with what we do and I know how stressful it can become, I know and see the efforts put into each post, each week and how far we can develop in this community. We have bought something that I feel the community love and enjoy reading weekly and we will continue to do that. All of you are or were such lovely people to work with and I've never had a bad experience working on this team. We are the cool buds :sunglasses:

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Curators

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October came and soon I was looking to progress once again. Curator applications! At first, I never thought myself worthy enough to try for this position and never did I think I'd find myself having the courage to actually apply. Again it's something I had applied for before, but I deleted the application rather quickly and told myself I wasn't going to be good enough for it.

October - I applied for it this time. I don't really know what urged me to apply but I did and it was a hell of a time waiting to find out who got in and who didn't

For the life of me I have no idea why they keep wanting me for their teams!!! However I made trial week!! And I was so so excited but also nervous because now at this point I was working 3 different teams. The week itself was up and down, there is so so so much to learn and so much to get through.

Honestly I had two breakdowns to Jenny and a breakdown to Misty

However, never ever will I regret applying for this team. I never knew how much work curators did until ing and seeing how much we do work, daily, is so much and should be inspirational to other people because I know people work so so hard every day

I, once again felt so welcomed with knowing a few people on curators and the nerves settled after getting past trial week. I surprised myself with what I had achieved without the week and built more confidence in curating this community.

Now this may seem irrelevant. But if I had not gone for this position and learned what I have learned now, the job I currently have is something I would have never of gone for. Literally for the type of work it is and what I do. It's qualities progress from what I do here. And what I do in my actual work offline. And without those skills and confidence to say "yes this is wrong" or knowing how to handle a situation professionally. I would probably never work where I do.

And they say you can't possess skills from social media

Jasper

Thank you for being my curator mentor throughout my time here, I feel like I have asked you so so many questions and annoyed you with my baby curator stage. You have been here through everything no matter what and I love you.

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To Curators

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This goes to everyone past and present. You are an amazing team and are true role models to this community and I hope, to those who aren't here now, can use these skills in real life. This team is like family and if it doesn't function like that, then it would never work. I have never ever had an issue on this team and I surely hope to never have any issues. You all work so hard and you should all be proud of what you have and what you can achieve

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Journalist Curator

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Now if things couldn't have gotten any better, I had my two teams curator and journalist and I was really happy, I love these teams but then something did happen

And I was so overwhelmed at the opportunity, I almost forgot to reply because I didn't know how to take it I!

This is amazing

smooth Jenny :joy:

But for real, I never thought I would actually be able to become the curator for a team, and now I was presented with this amazing position, to be the curator of an amazing team and of course. I said yes. Now I have been the curator of the Journalist team now for 3 months and it's the best experience I've had. The team are amazing.

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My Fiancé

I love you so much and can't thank you enough for the that you have given me, through everything you have still put me forward and pushed me up when I have needed it. There are times I just didn't think I could make it and you help me through everything, literally. You're amazing even if you feel like you're not

Jojo

I was scared you weren't going to like me at first, but when I actually got to know you, you crazy ass best friend you were, you have helped me so much on and off of staff and you can never leave me now because you are my crazy metal head bestfriend that I wanna come and meet and we can go ice skating and snowboarding. Thanks for ing me through my tough times on staff and even now you me!

Eli

Boyo I've known you almost two years and you were here when I first ed event team, it was so sad to see you leave, you have taught me a many great things as well as being an amazing friend to me. I'm so happy you're back on staff and I get to work with you again. I love you boyo

Jenny

Wow, what an amazing opportunity you have given me, not only to work as part of your staff but literally with you on curators and on journalists, you have helped build me up to where I am now and I don't think I would have done it without your encouragement and . I love working on Journalists and working with you. You're amazing

Jay

I really thought you hated me for such a long time and the fact you ed me from last year, still amazes when I ed staff. You are crazy and funny and the staff therapist, I have stolen your sticker packs because they're amazing and I'm glad to have a chance to work with you as well!!

Jasper

From baby curator to elder curator and mentor, you have inspired staff with your commitment and cuteness. I didn't think you liked me either when I first met you, but you're just really soft and need snuggles and love. Which I fully provide. Thank you for helping me through out my trials and even now.

Skye

Damn lil sis I miss you on staff :sob:

Come back to us please, you are amazing and I miss having laughs with you. I don't know if you'll see this but know I love you and your typos. I loved working with you even if it was for a short time.

Isaki

Look I know you like telling me off but I'm older than you :sob: :joy:

You are amazing and even though we haven't talked that long, I really enjoy talking to you, you're so ive and positive. I think you're amazing and never give up, you've achieved so much and you should be proud!! Also. I wanna steal your art

Saur

My aestehtic queen buddy, we don't talk as much but I want to know I love and appreciate you, I love working with you and I think your amazing. Despite anything that has or is happening. You are so strong and brave and I love you!

Lotte

I've also known you for almost two years and I think that says a lot even though we fought at the beginning it's much different now, as we work on the same two teams we bounce off each other and you have also helped me at times when I didn't think I was going to make it on staff, especially when it came to journalists. And here we are, almost two years in and hopefully many more to go

Quinn

My lil flower boy. I don't know whether you will see this either but I hope you do. You also were there when I ed event team and even convicted me to , you helped me through a lot when I had questions and I really miss you now. I hope you read this and know how much I appreciate and miss you

Cidney

Ahhh I miss you as well. I hope you see this!!! I love the time we spent on staff together and one day I hope you come back to us because you're funny and awesome and a great person to work with. I really do miss you, you were on my applications of curators and it was sad to see you go. I hope you know you're amazing

Limon

I know we talk elsewhere but you have been by my side also for nearly two years, you were one of the first people I met on amino in that chat we were all in and have stuck with us since then. You're amazing and beautiful and loved and I hope you know this or imma have to come hug you

Misty

Toasty 🥺

Who could have a better big sis than you? No one, because no one else can compare. You are so ive and amazing and I love you. Even if you have to tell me to take a break. You have held me up when I broke and have tried to motivate me forward on now on staff and you are another reason I'm still here. You're not allowed to leave!!

Nuggy

Our best staff parent. I know we don't talk much, but you really are amazing. You have such cute aesthetics and I love your hugs. Know that we're here for you always because you deserve all the love and hugs in the world. You are amazing and this!!!

Tsu

Tssuuu!!! Now an editor grandma, bullying me for typos. Shh it's okay I still love you. You are amazing and it's great to have worked with you for as long as I have, and we haven't really talked elsewhere but you sure know how to have some fun and jokes. You are amazing and look after our team 🥺

Wing

You're so wholesome and it's cute. It's been great to have a chance to work with you even though you're not longer with us, I hope you read this and know that we love and miss you on the team and you are amazing and uplifting all the time. I'm still going to stalk you :triumph:

Everyone else!

Of course I wish I could add everyone but then we would be here all day and I can't do that! I just wanna say thank you to everyone who has ed me and been with me for the past year, those on staff now and those who have sadly left us and gone on to other things. I hope you all get a chance go read this and know how much I appreciate you. Everyone on and off staff, I have made some many friends and I hope to make more over the next (however long) my stay is on this amino. I couldn't have ed a better app

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Okay this was long I know. But it was also really important to me, so if you managed to read all of it. I'm impressed. Thank you for ready and until next time

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