More serious topic today children.
Ok so this is kinda sad, but for a solid decade of my life, I had NO idea that being gay WAS A THING. Like seriously, it's pretty sad. The biggest reason why I think I didn't know is I grow up in a Christian community, so.....
The thing that truly made me question my sexuality was the Pulse Nightclub Shooting. I being so upset about it and I didn't know why. I always got upset when I heard of a mass shooting or something like that, but never this bad. I literally started to cry for really no reason days after it happened. It's like that event opened up a whole new door in brain that was locked away for the first part of my life. The following weeks and months after that have just been... interesting. Some days I wake up and just question if I'm really gay. I mean I know I am, but it's just that "what if" in my mind that still makes me uncertain.
In 5th-6th grade I started to notice boys in a different way. If I saw a cute boy on TV I would think he's cute, but I didn't know why. I just pushed those thoughts aside because I thought I was straight. I just knew something was different, but I didn't know what it was. I never have liked sports, I always and still do hang out with girls, my best friends are girls. While this may sound stereotypical of me, I was pretty much was the stereotypical gay child. Then in the summer of 2016, the thought popped into my head. What if I'm gay? PANIC MODE FREAKING ENGAGED!
And that's the story of me finding out I was gay! The rest is just constant incognito searches on Google chrome of "how to know your gay". (and it still is).
Bye my wonderful peeps
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I'm with u Hayden. Need to Talk i'm here
I'm kinda in the same shoes as u im in a Christian fam and it's hard
Thanks:)