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Since you clicked on this post, you want to know the list of things on my bucket list. I have thought about this when I was younger, but due to my mom’s annoying ways I stopped. Now that I’m older, I can think about this all I want. Lol. I’m sorry if these things don’t see like huge things then again I’m not sorry because why should I be xD??? Anyways, let’s begin.

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number one | visit at least 20 states

I really want to travel. So far I’ve been to Mississippi, Georgia, Missouri, Louisiana, and Arkansas. I want to go to California, Florida, and New York for sure. As for the rest, I’m not sure about. I may just stay on the east coast since they’re closer of course.

number two | learn a new language

Sadly, I only know English. I want to learn Spanish, French, Japanese, or Korean. I took Spanish in High School and forgot all of it, but it’s the easiest out of the 4. It’s going to be tough, but I think I can do it.

number three | go to KCON or any concert

I love music. I listen to music just about everyday. I really want to go to KCON, but KPOP isn’t that popular. KCON is only held in California and in New York, so I’ll have to travel. If I can’t go to KCON then any concert by my favorite group or band would be fine. I want to see Paramore, Day6, Monsta X, Got7, and Twice.

number four | go to an anime convention

I love anime as well. I found out that there was an anime convention held in the next city over (like 45 mins depending on how fast you drive), and I’ve been wanting to go ever since I found out. I want to cosplay too, but I’m too insecure. I feel like most anime characters have to be cosplayed by people with pale skin. I know I shouldn’t think that, but I can’t help it.

number five | choose a set major

I’m confused. I get interested in things quickly. I now realized that science isn’t really for me, so I have to choose something else. I don’t know what though. If you ask me what I like I would tell you music and video games. I also like animals as well. I don’t know. I’ve been in college for like a year. I didn’t go this semester due to financial issues. Anyways, hopefully I have my mind made up soon.

number six | visit at least 2 other countries

On top of visiting 20 states, I want to visit at least 2 countries. I want to visit Japan and South Korea. I love their culture, so yeah. If I can visit more than 2, I also want to visit Canada, , and England.

number seven | dye my hair + shaved side/undercut

I never dyed my hair before. I have asked my parents multiple times and they always tell me “you hair is too long”. That has nothing to do with getting my hair dyed. I mean yeah it takes more dye, but also my hair takes more of any other product anyways, so that statement is invalid. I want to dye my hair ombré first (maybe). My hair is naturally dark brown, so I want it to fade into blonde. After I get tired of that, I want to either do half pastel purple and half pastel pink or make it ombré or do one color at a time. I’m not exactly sure yet. I kinda want to also dye my tips blue. I hope it doesn’t turn out ugly on me. Recently, I have been thinking about either shaving the side of my head or getting an undercut. I’m leaning more towards the undercut because I always have trouble combing the back due to it getting all tangled and stuff, and I think it’ll make my life easier.

number eight | get a tattoo + more piercings

I want to end up with just about my whole body covered in tattoos. I just like how they look. My mom has 3, my dad has one, and my sister got her first tattoo like a month ago. I want to get my first one on my birthday next month. I don’t know if I really want to because I get sensitive towards other people’s opinions and stuff. I can just see myself getting annoyed when someone asks “why’d you get it” or “what does that mean”? People already think certain ear piercings have meanings. Like my cousin (the one I hate), asked me what my industrial meant. I’m just like “IT’S A F****** PIERCING. THAT’S WHAT IT MEANS”. I didn’t say that to him. I just said “nothing”. It’s really stupid that everything has to have a meaning to it. Speaking of piercings, I want to get at least 6 more. I don’t know which though. I have a list of the ones I want. I think I’m going to get my cartilage pierced again. I just think having 2 on the same ear on top of each other is cute. Plus, I have these earrings that would make it even cuter.

number nine | gain a new hobby

I have about 3 hobbies:watching tv, playing video games, and listening to music. That’s all. I never played sports growing up. I hate getting all sweaty and stuff. When I was a senior in high school, I had taken nutrition and & food. We learned how to cook in the class and I quite enjoyed it. I want to learn how to cook and bake. I want to learn how to bake the most though. I also want to begin reading more. I’ve been watching these booktubers and it just made me want to. Reading kinda gives me a headache especially if I’m reading something on my phone, so I’m going to have to get physical books or listen to audiobooks. I hope this goes well.

number ten | dating??

It is honestly sad that I put this here, but oh well xD. I am almost 20 years old and never dated anyone. It kinda makes me sad because I know people who has been dating people since middle school. I feel like I haven’t been able to due to the fact that I don’t do well with people and also I don’t catch feeling for them either. I literally only had one crush. That’s it. Because of that, it seriously makes determining who exactly I am attracted to hard. I hope the universe feels sorry for me and send someone my way xD. I also hope that I meet someone who’s okay with me being Asexual. It’s discouraging seeing people say that they wouldn’t date someone who’s asexual without giving that person a chance. It’s sad honestly.

number eleven | lose weight

This may be a tough subject for some people. If so, please don’t read this part. Anyways, growing up I was sort of “fat” or “chubby”. I wasn’t skinny. Once I reached high school, I noticed that I was quite small compared to my mom, dad, and sister. My weight had fluctuated quite a bit when I was on my anti-seizure medicine (I guess that’s what it’s called), but I was at the weight in which I found ,to me, acceptable and good for my age and height. During the last couple months before getting off the medicine, I noticed that I’ve gained 20-25 pounds. Where did it go? I don’t know because I still look the same on the outside. It kinda makes me feel a type of way when I have to get on a scale at the doctors office. I’m satisfied with my thighs (kinda). I just want to lose my stomach and I’ll become a happier person. I want to begin a workout routine, but I’ll begin to be embarrassed even if I do it alone. I don’t know what to do about that.

number twelve | see a therapist/phycologist/psychiatrist

I was forced to see a mental health specialist when I was a Freshman. I went and ended up being told that I acted like a normal teenager. I didn’t say much to the guy anyways so yeah. My mom sent me because she thought I was depressed. I thought she was just overreacting, but I recently began becoming interested in all these mental illnesses and stuff. I looked into how I was and still am feeling as of this moment. I feel like I have some kind of anxiety disorder and also depression. If you were inside my body, you understand why I made that statement. Since it’s been 4 years, I think it’s time for me to go back. I don’t know how to bring this back up though. I definitely don’t want my parents in the room with me because if they hear about what I think about then that’ll cause problems outside the place and I don’t want to deal with that.

I think that’s all. I hope my grammar is somewhat decent in this post. I’m sorry if it isn’t.

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