Demons in my mind
Destroying me ever so slow.
Darkness surrounding, no longer a light.
Unable to lose any when there was already no hope.
Suffocation, losing hope and losing time.
No longer a human, merely a machine.
Between death and life, teetering at borderline.
No longer living on air, but instead gasoline.
Young, dreaming of love and glory.
Instead finding disappointment and pain.
Developing demons in my anxiety.
The world around me lifeless.. my inevitable fate.
I couldn't break surface tension in the sea.
I only sunk down to the dark waters below.
Begging, pleading, an unheard scream.
I gave in as I began to drown in my own sorrow.
I was a mistake
I hated myself most of all
Even to this very day.
I had nobody to cry out for, nobody to call.
As I sank deep into my sorrow,
A hand grabbed onto mine.
Not one hand, no.. two, then more in tow.
My friends loved me, they needed me alive.
Fox.. my brother in arms came to my aid.
Taking me by the hand.
He refused to just let me fade away.
He saved my life, brought me to dry land.
As I coughed up what felt like a lung,
A hand intertwined with mine.
Suddenly my eyes adjusted to see.. my friends love..
All of my friends.. right there by my side.
Imperfect yet beautiful in their own way.
A buncha weirdos with big brains.
They brought something to life inside me..
Something I never thought I'd get to see again.
As I looked up, a pair of arms wrapped around my body..
Nicky, my closest and dearest best friend.
There to ask if I was alright, as I sat there nodding.
There for me in my darkest times.. she refused to leave till the bitter end.
So many people came to my aid..
Truly more than I deserve..
They still come to my side now everyday.
Just to make sure I'm not alone when I feel hurt.
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Yes, that was a really short poem. I wanted to make sure I didn't drag on too long before doing this. I've been in a good place and thought these beautiful people deserved some recognition and realization for just how much they've helped me. I sincerely don't know what I would do without them..
Now, just forewarning! This is not by any means everyone I'm gonna write about. There are far too many people who I feel need recognition, so if I miss you, please tell me so I can show the world who you are! With that, let's get on with the show. :3
First up, Foxxy! Bro I.. mmm.. where do I bloody begin. Emil, I have never once told you but.. what I said is true. You saved my life. Multiple times actually. On the days when I was feeling so.. alone.. having such horrible dark thoughts, I immediately turned to you and you saved my life. I know so much has happened between us since we first met, and I know so much more may happen in the future, but I want you to know just how much I ire and how much I love you. I sincerely.. 100% don't know what in the world I would do without you being there for me. I know you've been going through some hard times lately, and I'm sure more are to come, but.. I am more than grateful to the universe that you exist. You bring a special kind of light into my life that I never thought could exist. You've proven time and time again that you are there for me when I need you the most. Even for the most trivial things. I call you my brother because no matter what happened/will happen, you are always welcome in my family. You deserve the whole bloody universe on a silver platter, but all I can truly offer you is a loyal sister and her love. Don't you ever doubt for even a second that you're not loved, cuz you just being alive in the first place? I love you for that. *Hugs* Yes I know you'll probably cry happy tears because of this, but it's well deserved. <3
Last but not least, my favorite sheep person, a baaaaaaahd-arse(heh sheep joke lol) my goodness are you a blessing in my life.
I've known you since I first ed. First as merely another RP partner, but then I learned to love you as my bff. Then as my sister. You have saved my life just as much as Foxxy. You have changed my perception of things I never thought I'd look at any different. We have been through so much together. Idk if you noticed it, but when I first ed and was too awkward to function, you would take time just to allow me to get comfortable with people and learn how to love em. You made sure I didn't feel left out of things, and I appreciate you so much for that. You have helped me through so much, and I've done the same for you. I look up to you so much. You're so mature and so wise in my eyes. I want to be the kind of person you've been towards me. You've kept me going through my darkest days and my highest highs. You even let me love your unicorn OC just for the heck of it. XD
I thank the universe that you exist, don't you ever ever ever ever ever think about changing. <3
No that's not everyone, but my mind is going blank(I haven't really slept for a couple days so that may be why. ^^`)
I'm sorry if I missed you, and if I did please tell me so I can add you in! Okie I love you all! <3
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