Low

I feel so overwhelmed right now

I feel so bad... The whole day's been a mess

I respect myself enough to not take any disrespect from somebody insignificant to me

But I am in such circumstances that they're always around and I cannot avoid

These days I've been distant...

But it doesn't bother them

And it bothers me why it bothers me

I have so many complicated feelings

I feel so drained

I know about nothing that's going on

I chose this for myself because knowing too much was depressing me and I was envious or probably angry at those who were ignorant

Now I am angry at myself but also partially relaxed

I feel drained just by listening to people

They talk too much and judge too much

And when things like these happen and my judgement gets clouded I speak what I don't intend to

I hurt or probably disappoint those I don't mean to

And I can't even explain myself or talk to someone about it because I feel they might be drained too, of myself

Everything feels so wrong...