i wish i could disappear forever.

i feel as if i’m nonexistent,

that i’m thin air stuck

in a thick atmosphere.

that’s a contrast though,

isn’t it?

thin and thick.

i’m a contrast,

i’d like to think.

i know i’m different,

not in a good way.

i suppose that’s why

i’m invisible.

i wish i really was as invisible

as people seem to think i am.

i wish i could disappear,

evaporate into thin air

and never be seen again.

i don’t like being seen.

being perceived and

spoken to

and interacted with.

because it’s never in the way i wish.

i’m always treated like a girl.

i wish to be treated like me.

i don’t know what i am.

but i know i’m not a girl.

i’ve dreamt that i’ve been

nonexistent.

i always wake up

and see i’m still here

and get disappointed.

i wish with all of my heart

and soul

that i could

stop existing.

that i could disappear

and never ever

be seen again

and never thought about

again.

if i disappeared i

doubt anyone

would bother to

think of me

or me.

but that’s okay.

i don’t mind.

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~image credit; myself.

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