Dark road | Mother May Challenge #2 entry

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Hello peeps! Zen here and I bring you my entry for the Mother May Challenge.

Honestly I wasn't really planning to participate but here I am :sweat_smile: I decided to write this in Tagalog because I feel comfortable with our (referring to Filipinos) own language. Don't worry I made an English translation so everybody will understand :grin:

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Madilim na Daan

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Napatingin ako sa malayo’t hindi ko napigilang ngumiti. Lahat ng mga alaala koy tila nagbalik. Isang baliktanaw sa nakaraan.

Isa lamang akong simpleng babae na walang diresyon ang buhay. Hindi ko alam ang aking patutunguhan. Para bang nababalot sa dilim ang aking mundo. Nariyan lang ang liwanag ngunit natatakot akong lumapit rito kaya’t pinili kong magkubli.

Hindi ko nga lubusang naiintindaahn ang katuturan ng buhay. Ano pang saysay nito kung ipapanganak ka lamang upang mamatay? Marahil napaisip ka rin.

Totoo, ang buhay ko’y isang nakakayamot na pelikula. Ngunit para bang tumigil ang pag – ikot ng mundo nang masilayan ko siya. Ang mundo ko’y biglang nagbago at ang dating makulimlim kong kalangitan ay nasilayan ng sikat ng araw. Hindi ko lubusang maipaliwanag pero sa isang kisapmata nagkakulay ang aking buhay.

Natuto akong ngumiti at tumawa. Sa tuwing tinititigan ko ang kanyang mga mata naaaliwalas ko ang umagang kay ganda. Hindi ko mabatid kung anong mayroon sa kanya na wala sa iba ngunit ang boses niya ay musika sa aking pandinig. Ang kanyang mga salita ay nagdadala sa akin ng pag – asa.

Dumating sa puntong napadaan ang isang malakas na daluyong sa aking buhay. Nais ko na lamang malunod at mawala ng parang bula sapagkat alam kong hindi ko kaya. Ngunit siya, siya na hindi ko kadugo, nanatili siya sa tabi ko’t inahon niya ako sa aking dilema.

Siya na ang matagal ko nang hinahanap. Isang karamay sa aking mga problema. Isang balikat na masasandalan sa panahong ako’y nangangailangan. Siya na ang aking hinahanap – ang aking liwanag sa dilim.

Tila ba mayroon siyang mahika sapagkat napapatawa niya ako sa mga pagkakataong nais kong mapaluha. Sa tuwing kasama ko siya’y ako’y maligaya at ang lahat ng problema ay napapagaan. Ganito pala ang pakiramdam ng mayroon kang kaibigan na handang sumuporta sa sa’yo sa bawat laban.

Hindi ko maipaliwanag ang ugnayang ito. Para bang siya ang nawawalang kalahati ng aking kaluluawa. Ang kaligayahang aking nadarama ay hindi kayang mapantayan ng anumang salita. Abot langit ang aking pasasalamat.

Hindi ako karapat – dapat sa isang tulad mo ngunit Salamat kaibigan at nanatili ka sa hirap at ginhawa.

Tinuruan niya akong maging masaya at ang kaniyang yakap ay nagsisilbing kanlungan ko sa mga pagkakataong hindi ko na kayang tumayo sa’king sariling mga paa. Mahal ko na yata siya… bilang isang tunay na kaibigan.

Sariwa pa sa aking mga alaala na minsa’y sinabi niya sabay ngiti “Ilang beses ka mang madapa tumayo ka at tutulungan kita”. Di kailanman binigo niya ako. Matalino siya, maganda at mapang – unawa kaya’t labis ko siyang tinitingala. Isa nang kapatid ang turing ko sa kaniya… ang aking kahiramang – suklay. Sa mga panahong kailangan ko ang a laging bukas ang kaniyang pintuan. Hindi ko naramdamang ako’y nag – iisa dahil sa piling niya sapat na.

Hindi ko na nais pang bumalik sa lilim ng kadiliman. Nagpagtanto ko na rin ang hangarin ko sa buhay. Nais kong maging tulad niya. Nais kong maging dahilan sa likod ng ngiti ng iba. Alam kong malayo pa ang aking lalakbayin ngunit ito ang daang gusto kong tahakin. Sa simpleng pagsusulat ibig kong maghatid ng inspirasyon sa mga taong katulad ko. Gusto kong maging instrumento upang ipakita sa mga tao kung gaano kaganda ang mundo kapag sinuahan natin ang bawat isa.

Ano man ang iyong estado sa buhay hindi ito hadlang upang makapaghatid ka ng ngiti sa mga mukha ng iyong kapwa. Madilim man ang daan sa umpisa, lakas ng loob lang ang kailangan. Walang daluyong na hindi malalgpasan ng isang pusong palaban. Kinaya ko kaya’t kakayanin mo.

Word count: 587

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Translation

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Dark road

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I looked at the distance and I could not stop myself from smiling. All the memories seem to be replaying in my head. Consider this as a look back into the past.

I was once a girl whose life doesn’t have a direction. I do not know my destination. My world seems to be covered in darkness. There is a glimpse of light but I'm too afraid to come near so I choose to stay on my refuge.

I do not really understand the meaning of life. What’s the sense of being born if you’re going to die anyway? Perhaps you’re also wondering.

True, my life is a boring movie. But it was as if the rotation of the world stopped as I glanced at her. My world has changed dramatically and once again the sun shone in my gloomy skies. I cannot explain how, but in a blink of an eye my life changed.

I learned how to smile and laugh. Every time I stare at her eyes I see through her soul. She is a wonderful person. I do not know what she has that others don’t but her voice is music to my ears. Her words bring me hope.

It came to the point where I faced a strong surge in my life. I just wanted to drown and disappear like a bubble. I'm just a weak girl and I know myself that I can’t make it. But she, she who wasn’t even related by blood to me, she rescued me from my dilemma. She stayed by my side.

She's the one I've been looking for all this time – a shoulder to cry on. She brought light into my dark world.

When tears threaten to fall, she makes me laugh effortlessly. I don’t know how she does it. Magic perhaps? Whenever I am with her I feel carefree like I don’t have to worry about my problems. So this is how it feels to have a friend who is always there to back you up in every fight you face in life.

I cannot explain this connection. She is like the missing half of my soul. Words cannot explain the happiness I feel. I appreciate heaven's gratefulness.

I'm not worthy of someone like you, but thank you my friend for staying in difficulty and comfort.

She taught me how to be happy. I find comfort in her hugs every time I cannot stand on my own feet. I love her… as a true friend.

I can still when she once said with a smile, "No matter how many times you stumble, I will always lift you up". She never failed me. She is smart, beautiful and understanding that I look up to her. She is like a sister to me. At times I needed , her door was never closed. I did not feel like I was alone because with her I’m floating on cloud 9.

I do not want to go back to the shadow of darkness. I have realized my purpose in life. I want to be like her. I want to be the reason behind someone’s smile. I know that it’s a long journey but this is the path I choose to walk. By simply writing I want to inspire people like me. I want to be an instrument to show them how beautiful the world is when we each other.

Whatever your status in life, it is not a barrier for you to bring smiles to your neighbors' faces. Even though the road is dark, courage is all it takes. There is no calamity that cannot be overcome by a fierce heart. I survived and so will you.

word count: 616

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*laughs nervously* How was it?

Please tell me what you think about my writing, I'd really appreciate it.

Anyhow, I thought of this quote while I was writing this so might as well put this here. It just popped out in my mind, I don't know where it came from.

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❝Madaling ngumiti, madaling tumawa ngunit mahirap maghanap ng dahilan kung bakit.❞

"It's easy to smile, it's easy to laugh but it's hard to find a reason why."

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Before I end this blog I would like to take this opportunity to encourage everyone to please partake on Appreciation Club's Mother May Monthly Challenge

Together let's make this community active and positive! #SaveHenry

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