despondency (poem)

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"Despondency”

i did everything i could

pulling at strings

desperately

searching for a way

i could make it work

throughout time

and the universe

i prayed for a way

to have You again

by my side

i miss You

i want You

i hate You

i love You

my mind spirals

flooding with thoughts

like a heavy storm

longing for You

craving Your touch

i yearn again for You

my anguished pleas

spewing bittersweet symphonies

heart and mind flooded

aching at the thought of You

i miss You

i want You

i hate You

i love You

the pain in my chest

is like a turmoil

ripping me to shreds

slowly trying to claw

its way through my veins

the damage is already done

and now i sit here

silently

blaming myself

for what it's become