disclaimer: there’s swear words in here don’t @ me,
and this is for the #cupidsarrow challenge thingy that i did with aito (dingdong)
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i loved you,
i adored you.
i hated it because it hurts
i hate how you look at her
your smile beams and your cheeks
glow the colour red.
i hate you.
you shattered my heart into a hundred thousand pieces and
ripped me to shreds.
so i ask you,
how could you ?
how could you hold my hand
and kiss me on the sidewalk one day
then the next,
be with another girl
who’s not even better ?
how could you fucking pretend to love me for two whole years,
then decide you wanted to call it quits.
without even telling me
do you even when we went out ?
how we danced in the diner,
or how you held my hand when i felt scared of the dark ?
how we used to go to concerts,
and you’d hold me on your shoulders
for the whole time just so i could see ?
do you just holding me close when we watched a movie ?
did you even care for me back then ?
or were you just playing pretend ?
i’m not done yet,
what the fuck happened to all the fun times ?
did we just forget about them all since i said your
mountains worth of problems was too hard to climb ?
how could you say “i love you.”
when you can’t even look me in the eyes.
i’m tired, sad and you broke me.
so don’t you even dare try to save your ass now,
with all those condescending lies.
the saddest thing is
you didn’t even try to listen,
didn’t understand my sadness and disappointment
the worst of it, is the fact that i’ll keep coming back.
i’ll allow you to hurt me again and again, till i can’t cope with it.
i hope your new girl can light that desire in you,
can hold you and keep up with you.
i hope you gives your life a purpose,
but i also hope she knows,
you ain’t half the man you claimed to be.
you’re a heartless piece of narcissistic junk.
and honestly, i deserve better.
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