Sorry for the double post today, but I just wanted to put something out here that’s different from my normal work. I’ve been seeing the beauty of getting to know people, of pushing past my anxieties. I’m so used to staying in the background and only talking after others initiate it, but I have found the happiness of reaching out first.
I’ve been here for over 2 years and have seen those who I love and ire come and go. Sometimes it’s hard to come to with that and maybe that’s one of the reasons why I haven’t found the strength to grow close with others. I must let down the walls I don’t even know I have. But with encouragement (from people who probably didn’t even know they what they did for me) I have given myself the chance to take the path less travelled and truly meet new people.
While staying in the shadows is so much easier and safer, it’s not always satisfying. Sure I can be assured that there are no arguments or misunderstandings, but I also don’t get to witness the conversations that make your heart warm up and the laughter that gives you the most beautiful smile for myself.
My life isn’t necessarily bleak when I keep to myself and I may not always be able to put myself out there, but it’s not a bad thing to try and find the courage to get out of your comfort zone. I will always need my personal time. I like being by myself, but I don’t like to be alone. Is there a difference to you? There is to me. Because now I don’t have to always watch and wish, I get live and experience sometimes too.
I might not be like this all the time, this open and outgoing, but sometimes is enough for me. For now, I’ll let myself feel something other than neutrality. And when it’s time to go back in my shell, I’ll this experience so that I may have the motivation to come back out again.
I’m blessed to be a part of this wonderful community. And even if there comes a time where I have to contemplate on my future here, I’ll look to these wonderful times with even more wonderful people. Thank you all for letting me live for awhile; It’s more than I could ask for. Love you all and come talk to me if you ever want to chat🥰
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I wish I saw this post earlier! Just want to say that you’re a really cool person and one of the few writers I look up to. I adore being part of a chat with you, and I also get what you mean. A lot of people I used to know here have now left and that’s a really sad thing to even it, but at the end of the day I’m glad to interact with new people and make new friends.🥰 :heart:
Aww thank you so much, you’re very kind and also an amazing writer! I’m glad to have been introduced to you and everyone in the chat (most were invited by Para). Yes there’s both positives and negatives to meeting people and growing closer to them, but the memories are worth it even if the interaction is temporary :sparkling_heart:
I know what you mean, with wanting to stay neutral and just be in the background. It is so hard to put yourself out there, but I think you are brave for being more open! From what I've seen, you are really kind and encouraging! You are really a great leader, and I hope you keep being you! :blue_heart: :purple_heart: 🥰
Aww thank you for your sweet words! They mean a lot :sparkling_heart: You’re so kind and encouraging, Never stop being you either!
Reply to: Dreamer✰
You're welcome! Thank you, as well! :blush: