told.

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trigger warning.

so many things i wish i was never told

like how the earth spins

or the way the wind blows

like i love you and i miss you

or i’ll be there for you to hold

i’ll carry you in my arms

and hold your hand at my heart

and god how i wish you never

spoke those words…

like how money doesn’t grow

and there’s things i’ll never know

or how the shapes have names

and nothing stays the same

i wish you never said

you’d stand with me through it

or how you’d keep me to it

like a promise i didn’t mean to make

and how the trees grow in spring

and crops are harvest at fall

and clouds can make characters

and how the rain will soon fall

or how everyone is unique

because no one will understand

that being me means being free

in a prison no one knows it seems

i wish you never told me

i should cherish my childhood

and grow up to make a difference

i wish you never said all the things

like how the apple fell

or the problem was solved

how the lightbulb became

and how evolution changed

i wish it all just stayed the same

i wish i wasn’t the one to blame

i wish you never told me how it came

maybe then it wouldn’t change

i wish you never told me

you would never leave me

i wish you never told me

you’d always come and save me

i wish these words took up less space

because they’re blocking my way

god i wish things didn’t change

i wish it would just go away

i wish you never told me

you loved me more than the world

and i wish you never told me

you cared because it hurts

i wish you lied

and i didn’t have to know

because maybe in a different world

i’d be better off alone…