Dee - Left The Area

I am tired. My real life is messy and confusing. I get a lot of dark thoughts these days. Those bad types of thoughts that aren't easy to face, and are hard to talk about.

Emotionally, I am drained and trapped by "Dee". I cannot let myself say "F*ck you, leave me alone, I can't be friendly anymore." So this is the end of Dee on TA.

Add to that I haven't ever really figured out how to control my time on Amino. If you have know me from my earlier days here, second half of 2017, (has it really been that long?) that has been a constant struggle.

Looking at my minutes on Leaderboard you may wonder what the problem is, but my issues goes deeper that a simple measure of minutes here during the last week.

No event has happened on this Amino to cause me to want to leave. This is a wonderful place and I want to thank Krupa, all the leaders over time, and everyone who has ed me during my time here.

To everyone on my Following list sorry for letting you down and not individually saying goodbye. Doing so, would be too awkward, painful and sad.

Ultimately there is no one reason for what I am doing. But being a transgender person is damn hard, and is taking it's toll on me. I am needing to cut some things loose in my life to survive.

I still love TWICE and continue wish that they will do a stadium tour that includes Australia.

Up up baby don’t give up

Wake me up, we can work it out yo

Up up baby don’t give up

Wow wow wow wow

Up up baby don’t give up

Wake me up, we can work it out yo

Up up baby don’t give up

Wow wow wow wow

Why not? I know, everything and anything seems unpleasant

These days have been very very sad, very very hard

But I’ll overcome them, and reset whenever I’m tired

Say panpakapan, panpakapan*

I look up to the sky, it’ll go my way

Up up wake me up, every time you shine

My future changes

Up up step up, I’ll work up the courage

To seize tomorrow

Even on rainy days, even on windy days

I’ll keep on smiling, never give up

Up up wake me up, do you believe?

Will you embrace this happiness?

I won’t rush unexpected joy

Patience and tears are a must

Hanging hanging on moving moving on

Oh, I won’t give up

It’s okay to cry, I’ll get up again as always

Say panpakapan, panpakapan

This life is so dramatic

Up up wake me up, every time I get hurt

My heart becomes stronger

Up up step up, the things we once couldn’t do

Are becoming possible

My wish will come true

The day I reach that place

Up up wake me up, today I look behind

And the beautiful flowers are blooming

Up up wake me up, every time you shine

My future changes

Up up step up, I’ll work up the courage

To seize tomorrow

Even on rainy days, even on windy days

I’ll keep on smiling, never give up

Up up wake me up, do you believe?

Will you embrace this happiness?

:v: :alien: