i’m such a wreck,
such a mess,
the thought of you eats at me,
it eats me alive.
and i’m scared,
i’m so scared.
i can’t tell if i’m scared of you,
or the thought of you near.
i’m such a wreck with you.
you’re a curse
and you’re growing.
you broke me,
do you like my hurt?
would you like me more if i hurt myself?
slit my throat,
slit my wrists,
slit my legs,
my chest,
my thighs,
my waist,
my everywhere
because you love seeing me so hurt
and as long as you’re happy
you’re not touching me
and i’d rather be in pain
then have you grab me again,
pull my lips to yours against my will.
you taste like alcohol and cigarettes
in the worst way possible.
you’re such a lady,
he tells me,
he sings,
you’re such a pretty lady.
"she’s a lady",
and i can’t scream no.
i can’t scream at all.
blood spills down my wrist
just as tears sting my cheeks
just because i thought of you
and i know you’re gone,
you’re never to be seen by me again.
but i’m still so scared.
i want to wake up.
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~sentences; 13.
~paragraphs; 44.
~program(s); notes, word counter, amino.
~time; 8 minutes.
~image credit; myself.
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