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❀(n.) a wallflower is someone with an introverted personality type who will attend parties and social gatherings, but will usually distance themselves from the crowd and actively avoid being in the limelight.

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i have a confession.

it’s nothing serious.

at least, not to you.

but it’s important.

to me, at least.

how should i go about saying this?

it’s hard to even begin.

you probably already know what i’m talking about.

don’t you?

wallflower

is what they would likely call me.

what i’ve adopted to become a part of me.

it fits my character,

don’t you think?

how i always attend parties,

but leave so early.

how i don’t talk to anyone,

but still pretend to try and engage in conversation.

truth is?

i’m scared.

so damn scared over something so small.

i hate socializing.

i hate having attention on me.

it makes me so uncomfortable,

for people to go out of their ways just for me.

for people to always ask, “how are you?” “are you doing okay?”

”why are you so distant?”

”why are you always so quiet?”

it’s just...

odd.

but i won’t say anything.

at least, not verbally.

i don’t want to cause any problems.

me writing this is trouble enough,

don’t you think?

perhaps it’s a terrible idea to type this up.

i’ll probably stare at it for hours,

hoping no one will read.

but they will.

and they won’t know whether or not this is real,

or just another work of fiction.