Why does she stay?

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Disorder chosen: Bipolar disorder

Sometimes I feel like I'm drowning in my emotions. Other times I lay awake unable to feel anything. With empty thoughts. Most people don't know what I go through. That's because I keep most people in my life outside of my Bubble of dysfunction. I push everyone away so they don't have to be dragged down with me. Everyone except Amelia.

The only person in this world I trust to love me for both sides I me. Through the high and the low. I love her. She is my soulmate. I'll never let her go.

I am glad she has stayed with me through this. My ups and downs in my sea of emotions. We usually have great times. But recently, my illness has been causing us pain. Not physically. But emotionally.

I barely talk now. It's been about seven months since everything started going downhill. At first it was grumpiness. Amelia just thought I was Hangry. I started to eat less and mope around the house. I slept in.

She has been with me though. Helping me through it. I love her. But I feel like I'm bringing her down with me.