Should've Been Me

Should've Been Me

word count estimate: 220

By SparklyHorn

Genre: Drama

3/26/2021

Poem

WARNING: Implied suicidal intentions, death

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With every morning dawns a new day.

"Leave yesterday behind you," they say.

"There's no turning back now!"

The question I'm left with is how?

Two days ago the world was fine,

I thought she'd meet the one I'll call mine.

But yesterday she ed away,

I can't fall in love anyway.

Maybe it could've been me.

The saying goes that you love yourself first,

Otherwise each relationship will burst.

The question is now:

How are you supposed to find love, anyhow?

Now I sit alone,

Hardly bothering to check my phone.

None of then care that she ed away,

But that was news from yesterday.

Maybe it should've been me.

So now, here, I sit.

Only children would throw a fit.

But for the mother, you loved dearly?

I won't cry severely.

There are many ways,

She taught me to cope with my anxieties.

But I still refuse to hear,

About the feelings that I don't hold dear.

It should have been me.

She is still around,

Although much harder to be found.

Still I feel alone,

In this house I once called home.

The test of my life is upon me,

Who would I rather be?

The one forced to survive?

I'd rather be the one who died.

It should've been me!

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Authors Notes:

Thanks for reading! This poem is written in the Point of View of, Sandy, right after the loss of his mother. They were both fairly young, and she was his only true friend. The loss devastated him, and his emotional suppression issues arise with her death.

This poem was inspired by a video that I watched last night about grief and moving on in the Pixar film Onward. Here is the video if you care to watch it for yourself.

Again, thank you for reading! I hope you enjoyed, and would check out some of my other stories, too! Please have a wonderful day and talk to someone if you need to. Please.