I was so alone ( Trigger warning)

When I was younger I was so alone,

There would be no one knocking at my door,

I was was so lonely,

In the empty room,

Crying as much as I could,

I was trapped in my own little world,

In my mind,

No one to care about me,

Or what was about to happen,

I'm sorry I couldn't help it,

I found a sharp object,

I just wanted to feel a bit in control,

As blood dripped to the floor,

I looked at the door

I felt relieved,

And so I just continued,

I didn't know how it was wrong,

I'm sorry,

But not really...