23:35,

I haven’t exactly felt poetic, at least in writing in some time. Doesn’t mean I haven’t been writing, I just been working on scripts n action fantasy books. I haven’t exactly expanded on this book I’ve started a while back. I don’t necessarily feel like I’ve said it all either but I guess I’m saving it for when I’m ready to tell you. Which may come more from a music standpoint than anything else. But down the line of the next decade or so I may find the words and phrases that encapsulates it well but right now, times our tough. I spend more time viewing than living. More time wishing than doing. More frustrated than happy. I’ve poetically mentioned how I would like to run away. I mentioned to my friends, what seems to be a whim, on living somewhere I’ve never been or have experience in n to them I should probably be more frightened but to me I just wanna be more alive. I like living the life of a man guessing the answers, I’m not gambling cause the payout’s huge. I’m gambling cause I don’t know if I’ll win. I hate to lose but to always win is boring and to always lose is disheartening, yet in this world you never feel like you’re in an even plane. In fact, you’re losing bad or winning big but numbness comes in once you start to repeat a cycle too many times. When you meet a new woman, that looks like half the women you met before and sound the same, listens to the same thing, eats the same thing, gets angry or upset about the exact same thing. For some reason, you just happen to be someone I met before and I can’t your name. Do I like you? Or do I miss her? How come I see no difference between not just the two but all of you? And it’s not just women, everywhere I look it’s robots fighting to be human but aren’t exactly sure what it is. Or are they humans fighting to be robots, all the same. With one question and one answer. The numbness surrounds me when the world around me is decaying into gray. When everyone refuses to be more. I know too many who sees my viewpoint as ridiculous or crazy, I can never make you understand truly these ideas. For you believe there is nothing wrong, I know we’ve gone off the bridge. When little girls aspirations turned into settling nursing jobs or modern prostitution after breaking the borders in the work industry to get the respect they’ve wanted for so long. When men dress like women to feel love they never got. When the world took soul outta their music and said “we need a message!”, the message was clear before, you just needed to feel it in your soul. When overdosing no longer became a shock n just a matter of time. When art and movies stopped dramatizing and creating, giving us stories we already know but rapid fire the dumb jokes, throw in the nostalgic scene. When life became a joke and death became its pun. The world is numbing out and we don’t have answers to that. We feared a robot uprising but are unaware we are the robots that are uprising, there are so few humans left. All our philosophers are gone, our Christians are worn out n watered down, our leaders are lost, our armies are misguided, our schools are brainwashing, us as people are impatient and anxious. N the kids are hopeless. I don’t believe that going back to anything will make anything better, we’re already down this path, but where are we going? It’s scary not knowing, terrifying really, it’s also kinda fun not knowing, being able to experience something like never before. I believe both is necessary moving forward, not every move needs to be correct but we must move n hopefully we can find a way to enjoy it. g off as one of the last survivors of humanity may this message on.