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☣About Me☣

☛3 words to describe myself☚

If I had to choose 3 words that explains me the best, I'd go with spontaneous, mysterious, yet unique.

Why?

Well to be honest I would say spontaneous because one moment I can be happy the other I can be mad. I'm always random. Never know when or what's going to happen. Witch is why some of my books are interesting yet good.

Second I choose mysterious because I don't talk about myself often. I keep a low profile. Due to my anxiety and depression I have a fear of communicating. But am currently working through that and I am reaching out to as many people as possible.

And lastly I choose unique. Because believe me when I say your never meet someone as ~kewl~ as I am. Alright il be honest I'm not cool. But I am special in my own ways. My mind is different from others. Then again all of our thoughts are different. But once you get to know me. Your realize my personality is odd. And unexpected.

☛Quotaion I Live By☚

The quotation I live my life by is one I held close to me since I was a kid. I personally am unfamiliar to who said it. But it goes like this. "Don't think of the past, it brings tears. Don't think of the future, it brings fears. Stay in the present, with smiles and cheers."

Sure this quote may not appear that special to you. but when you suffer from post dramatic stress disorder. Witch is when your haunted from the past. Always brought back to that one moment of suffering and fear. Then maybe this quote will mean more to you.

☛philosophy in life☚

My personal philosophy in life is simple. You see my mind works in ways in witch it's just hard to understand. But I see life as this game. Kinda like that similar to flappy bird. Or just any old rage quit game. It doesn't matter how far or good you are. Or how hard you play. You will never win. One day you will fall. And just like the game reference. You will get right back up and restart. Sure you will get further and further the longer you play. But one day... You will have to turn off the game and unplug the counsel. Kinda sad and disappointing but honesty is honesty.

☛people who know me say☚

People who get to know me best say that I'm chill. Collective. And smart. And extremely annoying at times. But then again ain't we all a bit annoying at times? Let's be honest here. And I'm pretty open to any subject or conversation. I'm usually not shy when it's over messages and online. But when it comes to face to face talking. I'm pretty quiet and keep to myself and listen. To be honest I'm an great listener as well. It's one of the perks of being silent all the time.

☛i googled myself☚

Well, I googled myself this morning, and here's what I found. First thing that popped up was my poetry freak . Witch is what I used to use to post my poems. Then there was Cosmo funnel. Another publishing place witch I still use till this very day. And then I saw my smule with all my hilarious epic attempts of me trying to sing. And then my YouTube channel full of me playing video games and singing and a little of randomness. But hopefully by the end of the year. I want it to be fuller. To be compacted with everything iv written and accomplished.

☛whats my ion☚

My ion is mostly writing and occasional drawling. And YouTube here and there. But mostly writing. I started when I was 11 after losing my step dad by tragic events of cruelty. I won't get into the sappy details of him trying to murder or hurt us. Because we all have back stories. But shortly after he left I began cutting. And tried to comment scuicide by the age of 15. Besides that at the age of 13 in the middle of it all. I began writing poetry. And it evened out the bad. I would start of by writing either out of anger or pure sadness and end in an final conclusion. Day after day. Until I had 189 poems all crowded in my notes and folders. By this time I was not an author or didn't know how to publish yet or share my stories. That wasn't until I turned 14. I typed a good percentage of my stories and posted very few that I thought was good on small sites. And get my first . And it inspired me to post more and more, and well... That's what started my career.

☛when i was seven☚

When I was seven years old, I always wanted to be an archeologist. I was always fascinated by fossils and how the prehistoric events lead to how the continents are today. I would sit in my yard for hours at end looking in the driveway for more fossils. I having this humongous bad just filled with rocks. Sadly almost every week my parents would throw them out. I mean I guess looking back I don't blame them because I can see how having a room filled with rocks lying throughout my room could easily be a nuisance. But it still didn't stop me from continuing to do it. I literally had shelves full of books and movies about dinosaurs and fossils. To be honest I was that one kid that never had any friends and had speech impediments and always got made fun of and picked. Hew am I kidding I still am that kid. Nothing has really changed. But this was just a small fun fact about me. After the Dino and fossil phase I moved to the space phase. God I love space. If I could I'd jump in an spaceship and go right now. I mean the idea of how black holes and alter time itself and put it to a stop is mind blowing. And how a big ball of gas can ignite just like that and disappear and we wouldn't know until 3 days later. Because of how light years work. And to be honest I still am in the space phase.

☛name of a movie title for my life☚

If Hollywood made a movie about my life, it would be called "Pain Strives on" why? Well a big part of my life has been about pain and being called names. And being hit coming home with black eyes and nose bleeds. And for when I was beaten so hard that my voice was horse from all the crying. Il it. Abuse has been a day to day thing for me. Then in the older years of 15 btw I'm 16 now I began dating... Ooh yea.. I'm that guy who waits till he is 15 to finally get his first girlfriend. Shut up and stop laughing at me. Lol just kidding laugh it up because it gets better. Anyhow my first girlfriend I dated for 3 weeks before she cheated on me with her cousin. And yes her cousin. She knew it was her cousin to. Like no joke she had sex with him. Personally I'm a virgin. No big surprise there by the way. But that was pretty heart breaking. Because I did everything for her and bought her whatever she wanted. And wrote her poems and letters everyday. But tbh. Worth it. Because it lead to me moving on and getting stronger. I won't say all of my exes. Why? Because I only have dated 4-5 girls my entire life.... Wow I'm a loser. Well one thing is for sure. At least you know I'm not a pervert or am after sex. Unlike 80% of the population of men. Sure I will it I wish I wasn't the only virgin in my school seeing how almost everyone here in Jefferson city that's all they talk about. God I hate what our world has come down to.

Anyhow that's all I will talk about on my half for at the moment. But if you'd personally want to get to know me more just me with gmail or whatever u can find me on. I'm quite literally on every social media site there is; Facebook, tender, snapchat, kik, Twitter, YouTube, (nun of the porn sites I mean get ur head out of the gutters people) any how my gmail is Farrisdameon@gmail.com

Feel free to chat or talk to me.

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