I failed at this

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50 confessions thing

(This is going to be very unorganized)

1. I've been in the Vocaloid fandom since I was 8 by going through a YouTube rabbit hole

2. In real life compared to all the people I know, I'm seen as a Vocaloid nerd, but compared to others online I'm a Vocaloid noob

3. The amount of Vocaloids sometimes intimidate me

4. Scratch that, the amount of Utauloids intimidates me

5. I think my obsession with voice synths is scaring my family

6. I do like hearing about Vocaloid news, but I can't keep up with all the releases

7. Sometimes I feel like a disgrace to the community

8. I have a cringy Vocaloid OC from when I was 10

9. I don't like to think back on those days of when I was introduced to Vocaloid

10. I was your stereotypical weeabo, but with Vocaloid and mostly Miku

11. I was the one who introduced my friend to other Vocaloids other than Miku

12. In her words, she was Miku trash

13. How did Miku get so popular anyways?

14. I want there to be more figures of other Vocaloids than the mainstream ones

15. Even though I think she's overrated, I still have a Miku figure

16. I want to use the Vocaloid software

17. But I can't because I'm broke

18. And I don't know that much about making music

19. Also there's so many people who can do it better than me

20. I also see so many cool things in the community and I feel like I deliver diddly squat

21. I also like how VA blows up when I new Vocaloid is released

22. I also love/hate how the community is with memes

23. I want to make MLG Vocaloid edits

24. Sometimes I'm afraid of posting fanart because I'm afraid it's absolute crap

25. I absolutely can't draw anything and not make it look cute

26. That's why I can't draw male Vocaloids that well

27. I also suck at thinking of my own ideas, so I look up to others headcannons

28. I don't know if I should still post things about my MMD models on here

29. I have to many MMD videos that include Oliver and Fukase (help!)

30. There aren't enough memes

31. I wonder why Fukase ended up being the meme material

32. Also, there are a lot of gays ships in this community it's ridiculous

33. I feel like I'm going to Vocaloid hell

34. Why is everything in an anime style

35. People (normal people) see me listening to Vocaloids and will automatically associate me with being some kind of weeabo

36. Sometimes on different occasions I just act "rawr XD" random and it reminds me of my cringe 10 year old self

37. I made a terrible Miku cosplay that's still in my closet with all my other good cosplays/costumes

38. If I could go back in time and slap myself when I was listing to Electric Angel, I would

39. I used to memorize dances that went to Vocaloid songs and shove it in everyone's face

40. I made my sister into 10 year old me and I'm scared

41. My sister had a crush on Len for 2 days, it was weird

42. My sister and my friend have an obsession with Len

43. Deep story time, when I was 5-11 years old I was in a situation (that I don't like to talk about that much) and Vocaloid was one of he only things that I looked forward to

44. When I first got a phone I would listen to Rin and Len songs when I rode my bike to and from school

45. The first time I met someone who liked Vocaloid in real life, I freaked out

46. Sometimes I feel like I have an incarnation of Oliver in my Puppycat plush

47. I have no idea how Oliver came to be my favorite Vocaloid, it just happened

48. I've always wanted to do a real cosplay of a Vocaloid, but I'm afraid of doing everything wrong

49. My friend went to a mall and just saw a bunch of people dressed up as Vocaloids ( I have no idea what the occasion was)

50. It's hard coming up with 50 things relating Vocaloid to talk about

I probably did this very wrong

I'm sorry

This was more of a rant, than a confessions list

50 Strokes Challenge

(I probably failed at this too)

So I drew Ruby

I don't like coloring in skin

I'm going to bed