To all those I RP with, which nowadays is really only two people, and who I may RP with in the future. Be patient. I'm having issues with gettting replies out. For awhile now, part of me has been feeling unnervingly empty. I tried to change that feeling with a new job, new habits, and developing new hobbies. Nothing's working. It's getting harder to ignore. Everytime, I'm ultimately by my lonesome, which are beginning to be most nights as I'm struggling to sleep, my mind wanders to this. Thinks of it thrives on it. During the day, I busy myself with my job, videogames, anything. Talking about random stuff all the time, and playing games until 3:00 in the morning with a friend of mine has really helped, but only just so. I feel I can't be most anyone's emotional anchor right now, because I need an anchor myself.
I need a way to fight the pain of saying goodbye. To everything that I've lost. A way to let go. I'm just not too good at losing my grip. The state I currently live in is feeling less and less like home and I feel myself wanting more. Wanting somewhere else. I don't tell anyone this, but with it dragging me down, the burden's getting heavy. I feel lost, truth be told. Wandering aimlessly, looking for a sun under a blanket of gray clouds that are there night and day. Although it's still a bright day, or a new moon, something is missing.
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KC, all you need to do is ask. You know this. I'm always here for you.