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WARNING: sort of a small vent post

I wish I had friends here that i’ve known for like ever like so many people do

so many have all those friends and i’m just a jealous bitch

but nah cause apparently i have to be unable to form long lasting relationships even if it’s just friends

bc i’m just a really mean and horrible person sometimes

and i try a bit too hard like all the time

and if i try to reach out to talk to someone i’m just gonna feel like i’m annoying them and that they secretly hate me and they’re just being nice

and then everyone i ever try to impress and that i really look up to always gets annoyed at me or just ends up ignoring me

...so that’s nice