Venting.

I had a pretty crap start to my week, I got into it with my mom and stayed up Monday night crying now I’m in what I call my “slump” of depression and I feel like I’m in a dark hole, looking up at the light and hoping somehow to reach it again. I guess the feeling was a long time coming, the argument wasn’t exactly over something small but now I feel like a piece of garbage more than I have in a while, I normally wouldn’t post something like this, just fleshing out my feelings and letting anyone know. I’m the type to ignore my feelings and pretend that life is always okay. Sometimes I question if I’ll ever be normal, if I’ll ever stop suffering with mental illness and if it’ll ever go away. I don’t like talking about my feelings either because I feel like people will just think I’m stupid and annoying or dramatic. I just wanted to vent because I know everyone here is accepting and kind and no one will judge me for just wanting to put this out there, I appreciate you all so much and the friendship and the laughs you’ve given me. I’m sorry If I come off as super negative sometimes, I’m sorry if I seem like I’m being mean or I’m in a sour mood. I’ve just got a crapload of problems and no where to dump them. I just bottle it all up and hope it goes away. The weight of life is pressing down on me and it’s been a while since I took the time to let it out. If you’ve read this far, thanks for taking the time.