My path so far

So, I've experienced a lot and a little all at the same time when it comes to my path. It's all very confusing to me because I'm always doubting when things are real. I've had trouble it an entity named Angel who may or may not be a Tulpa, I've learned about things called elders I'm beginning to learn about feeling energy levels and finding out when I'm at the right energy level to work with tanzanite. I'm trying to learn about dream magic because of some of the dreams I've had and I'm not entirely sure what path to follow.