Jia's 30 DOSW - Day 29 and 30 - Let It Go + Release Ritual

I understood the 29th day meaning to do a ritual for release already but only after reading into day 30 I realized 29 should only be about writing down the things to get rid off... So although I dislike to put multiple days into one post, I will have to do this here. Else I don't think I would get enough material together if I didn't want to share the list on here... :v

I've been thinking about what things to add over the last days already. I did a lot of release rituals in my past and I learnt it's usually not enough to do the ritual if you didn't prepare the topic beforehand. Meaning, to face it and detach physically, emotionally or mentally from its source. Else, it will return again. So I tried to find out these things that I detached already from by big parts (or made progress in doing so).

I wrote the things I wanted to let go of mine in red ink on a paper and burnt it outside in the wind. I didn't want to burn it in a vessel to bury it afterwards, nor did the stream appeal to me for this occasion and so I burnt the paper in my hand and tossed the last piece in the air to get it dissolved by the wind. It only worked with the first part to be burnt, though and the third quarter fell down right next to me. I took it (it was grey and white burnt in ash and has small glimmers still on it) and tried to throw it again and this time it somewhat worked but the bottom piece was still resisting. So I crumbled it between my fingers and blew it away.

It was only a short moment for this act and although it didn't go as smooth, I felt some pressure on my heart chakra as I went back indoors and inside as I went to kitchen, my solarplexus. It seems like something liberated from these parts or it's in process.

The fact it didn't dissolve as smooth, I interpret that I still have to work more on some of these things to really let them go. Like, my aversion for humans. I won't get rid of it as long as I put no effort in changing my perceiption and learn to trust them as a whole again.

Yet, I still count this act overall as successful. I already felt some liberation as I wrote down some point and charged the paper with the intent regarding this aspect. One or two felt like getting released on this point already and I am sure there will be some notable progress in these points once a bit of time had ed for things to adjust.

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