Switching Over

It’s hard to say

When a switch

Switches over, turns the page, starts another

Course, another game

Another game that can’t be won

It’s hard to stay

On this track

On this track that comes undone

And I’m walking down this path

That screams at me to run, run

Towards the sun, towards the moon, the stars

Away from all the fallen ones

I can’t keep running

I must keep on going

I must keep on skipping

The lessons I should be living

And the things I’ve been taught

Have all been done for naught

And I’m living this sweet life

With a bitter taste in my stride

It’s hard to say

When a feeling

Feels intense, stops the race, starts all over

Once, all over again

Again we go moreover

It’s hard to stay

In this motion,

In this motion on a coaster

And I’m screaming on this ride

Waiting for it to stop, stop

Finish the loop, finish the cycle, the curse

Stop the story that keeps on writing

I can’t keep running

I must keep on going

I can’t stop ignoring

The people who swear they love me

And I’m living this sweet life

With a wobbly smile in my stride

It’s hard to say

When a person

People like, becomes important, pauses thoughts

And, makes you feel

Makes you feel all over

It’s hard to stay

In this moment

In this moment on a stage

And I’m singing in the spotlight

Hoping for it to go, go

Never finish, never stop, my life

Is worth more now than it ever was

I can’t keep running

I must keep on going

I will this time

The love, the tears, the one-lines

And I’m living this bittersweet life

With a skip in my stride

･*•｡.•* ༚ ✧ ༚ *•｡.•*･

AN:// I don’t have any first hand experience on mental illnesses, so if the perspective I’m writing this on is incorrect or represents someone with a mental illness poorly, please correct me.

I wrote this in the perspective of someone who is suffering from anxiety, but is getting better at managing it. I wrote this because I want people to know that it gets better, eventually, and that if you ever need someone to talk to, I’m here. I’ll listen. I promise you that.

I love all of you beautiful people. :two_hearts:

(Also, the style of poetry I've used here is a ballad. I'm pretty horrible at ballads, but I think since I'm alright at writing non-rhyming poetry, so that's the combination this poem ended up having! :D)

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