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hazel west༄ 08/02/18

i left a housecat in a fire

I don’t really feel anything anymore

I just miss the old days, the old hoorays

I don’t really laugh or smile anymore

I just pray that things will change

But hoping won’t do anything

And I still try and try and try

But my efforts seem meaningless

As if all I do is lie and lie

I miss the old days

But you’re corrupted by your misery

I miss the old ways

But you’re so hell bent on your way you can’t see

We’re all suffering.

I’m so sorry

I let you all down

My time is coming to an end

And I don’t wanna end with a frown

I can’t help but worry

Wondering where I went wrong

Where we all fell...

Let’s face it.

What was once thriving

Is now dying,

There’s no denying.

I tried to stop it.

But there is nothing I can do anymore.

I’m a coward, I’m a fool.

But at least my affliction of this terrible sadness

Will be gone for now, hopefully.

Somehow.

:cat: -[CIU]i left a housecat in a fire

[C]I don’t really feel anything anymore
[C]I just miss the old days, the old hoorays
[C]

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rooz [leaving]

Haz, that you are beautiful, amazing, great, strong and beautiful inside and out. I know you are doing your best and I know you are strong. I'm really thankful that you're trying your best to help return the community to old times, and we're really thankful for that. Your effort is something we should be really thankful for. I don't want to see you sad, because you deserve to be happy, and I know you will be happy again soon. I will be here for you and I am not the only one. So if you need to talk, I am here. We all are here for you. :heart:

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hazel west༄ Author

Thank you Rose, for always being such a positive light to so many people :sparkling_heart:

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rooz [leaving]

Reply to: Hazel West

I am always here for everyone, no matter what mood i am in :heart: I just care about others to be happy~

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[GONE] ✰ 彡 ᴠɪᴋᴛᴏʀɪᴀ :tm: 彡 ✰

Dear Haze,

I just wanted to let you know that you're wondrous, amazing, courteous, creative, ravishing, genial and absolutely ******* gorgeous from inside out.

Though we never really personally spoke to each other about our lives, just from spending time with you in certain projects gave me the chance to unfold this amazing person I am so thankful for meeting. I could tell straight off the bat that you're a determined, diligent & kind person, a true leader indeed. You care about those around you whether you know them personally or not and you want to make sure everyone feel satisfied and happy.

I'm assuming that's also what makes you sad. I know the community has been a rough place lately and it has been difficult to stand in the sidelines and watch everyone happen in front of you but it's really not your fault, it's none's. Everything happens for a reason, and though we can't see the reason right now, I assure you all of the struggle will be worth it and that will make it out together, safe and sound.

Please don't let this get to you too much, I know it's difficult to avoid when it's all over the community, but please make sure you take care of yourself. You're such a good person and it sucks to see someone so pure suffer so badly.

I know you want the good old days to return, just as many other people in the community, actually, I'm pretty sure all of the people in the community and I'm sure it'll happen eventually. Things change in life but as long as you try and keep a positive attitude, you can get through these changes! I know it's hard to stay positive in a situation like this, trust me, I find it hard myself, but there's always a rainbow after the rain, just as there's the light after the darkness.

❝The sun will shine on us again❞

[if you don't get the reference I'll cry a little inside]

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hazel west༄ Author

Thank you so much for taking time out of your day to write this Vik. I haven’t been myself lately and reading this honestly made my day :heartpulse: :heartpulse:

It’s people like you that keep me here everyday :hearts:

[Also isn’t that some marvel thing xDD]

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Reply to: Hazel West

You are very welcome, you're my friend and I'm willing to spend all of the time in the world in attempt to help, even if it's just a little!

I'm glad you're feeling a bit better, that I love you, as well as many other people on here and this community wouldn't be the same without you!

[it is a marvel thing haha I'm glad you know what I'm talking about]

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Kateigh ₊˚.༄

Someday you will smile and laugh like the old days. Your effort does a lot more than to think it does and even if it doesn't seem like it now, it will show. The fact that you're doing your best shows how you care. You haven't let anyone down, everyone sees your intentions that want everyone to be happy. You aren't a coward, you aren't a fool. There's always a way, and the terrible sadness will be gone, sooner or later. Just hold onto your hope :heart:

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