┌─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───┐
I've been sitting in my room for a long time. Something doesn't feel right. I've lost a ton of motivation these past few weeks and I've been trying to find a reason for it. I thought that maybe it was because of Marcus... I still can't forget him even if I try. I think about him all night and worded, where he is. Maybe it's because of the stress. I've already realised that I can't handle the amount of training I do. Everyday I feel drained from all the work and I'm tired of it.
└─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───┘
┌─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───┐
I know it's hard, but maybe it's time to open a new chapter?
└─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───┘
┌─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───┐
Today I made a hard decision. I put up most of my horses for sale. They've been loved and trained enough. They're ready for a new chapter in their lives as well.... I logged into my computer and wrote an ad for all of them. After taking a deep breath, I pressed "post". It's too late now.
└─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───┘
┌─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───┐
I went back outside to the stable, looking at them for the last time. Tears slowly filled up my eyes. They were looking at me confused. I could understand what they were thinking. "What's happening?", I heard coming from them. It broke me that they can't understand me and that I'll have to leave them in confusion and fear.
└─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───┘
┌─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───┐
I couldn't control my emotions so I grabbed whatever bridle I found and hopped on Chance like the good old days. I was overwhelmed by all the memories of our first day here, about my parents and our old farm. I softly kicked Chance so he would move forward. We galloped through the fields and I was finally calm. Everything felt like a blur but this was the only way I could forget everything. But one thing was still bugging me.
└─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───┘
･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ.
"SHIMMER!"
･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ.
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