✺ ; maybe. || r.m.

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i suddenly feel

peace.

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As I stood by the door of Pop's, hand in hand with my only er who happens to be a Serpent, I felt a wave of peace. This place made me realize that I was, indeed, in love. The way Toni looked at me, her touch... it made me feel, what did she say?

Sensational.

I thought that I would never be in love. I was never in love. I didn't even know that loving could feel this way. It made me feel alive. I used to be in love with my best friend, indeed. I was obsessed, or so I thought. But it just didn't feel this way. All I ever had in my life was... nothing. Jay-Jay was the only one who actually loved me. Yeah, I'm aware that I had no friends. My brother saved me, and he made me feel loved. He will never know how thankful I am. But now, I feel all the sparks by just holding the hand of the pink-haired girl. I don't even know her for that long, heck, I didn't even think that I would be friends with a Serpent, but guess that life wanted to surprise me. Toni made me feel the way that no one else could. The fact that we love each other like that isn't the thing, but since Jason's death, I never got to taste the slightiest bit of love from anyone, especially from my family. I am even grateful to Archie and his crew for saving me, because it felt like someone actually cared, just for a moment there. But I knew one thing, everyone would miss me when I would be gone.

But God, no one would ever think that THE Cheryl Bombshell has any problems besides Jay-Jay, would they? I seem like the bitch, maybe ai am, but they don't know what's going on in my head. They never will. I didn't even know what was my sexuality until just a few days ago! And I actually dare to think about how I judged Kevin. Finding the real you is hard, but Toni gave me the will to try and find the real me. I wanted to feel this way. Alive. Feel like I broke out of some kind of a prison, a prison of my own feelings. Sure, I'm out, but they still stayed. But you know, a little pain is there to make you know you're alive.

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She was happy. I watched the girl dance with the traitor, Chuck, who has obviously "changed". I watched the way she smiled, her happiness. The way her eyes sparkled when they met his, the way they looked at each other. She indeed was happy. And honestly, I'm happy for her. She deserves happiness. After all her family drama, she deserves it. It was that faggot Chuck, but she deserved to be happy. She is still my best friend after all, just forget about the feelings. Yes, I'm with Toni, but I can't say that a part of me still doesn't feel something for Josie. Josie stood by my side for a long time after all. Toni is great, but Josie is just... Josie. She knows about me and Toni and she s us, but there will always be a part of me that feels something for her. I would normally never think of this, heck, I would never think this way, but I know that a little part of me will always think of Josie. I can't lie, I drew me and Josie again a few days ago. I shouldn't be doing that, Toni makes me happy. Josie doesn't even like me like that! As much as I know, she is straight. And, I mean, why would she like me? Her Bombshell best friend? Chuck isn't a bad looking guy... at all. I mean sure, his personality sucked, but he really seems like he changed. Josie needs and deserves a positive change.

I when me and her had sleepovers, she talked about how annoying Reggie was. Well, Reggie was really drooling over her, he still is. Back then, I used to laugh whenever she got a risky text message from him. But now, I act like it's all good, when it isn't. Me and Josie really distanced ourselves from each other lately. I don't know, is it because we don't have time or something else? Probably not, the both of us always have time. I can see her out with other people... a lot. I mostly go out alone or with Toni. But honestly, I want my best friend back.

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I noticed that Toni is shooting some odd glares at the two dancing too. Was it because of me? Maybe Toni can read me like a book after all.

"I know you have feelings for her." She muttered to me.

I just looked at the pink-haired Cha Cha, without being able to get myself to respond. Yes, I did, but I couldn't just say that to Toni. I couldn't hurt her.

"And it's okay, I understand." She continued with a small grin. This girl definetly wasn't planning on giving up on me.

I couldn't hit sense. Cha Cha actually liked me, and I started at a girl that only loved me as her best gal pal. I just want her to be happy after all.

I squeezed Toni's hand a little stronger, and gave her a glare. Just as I did that, I heard the bell of the doors making the small ring. I turned around to see who was it, and just when I did, I saw who I wasn't expecting.

Mayor McCoy.

"Let's go..." I mumbled to Toni quietly and we immediately started rushing towards the doors. I looked at Josie's mom approaching Josie, and a million thoughts raced through my head. Toni was already at the other side of the door, and I held the edge of the doors and looked at my ebst friend for a second.

Good luck, Josie.

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- ˏˋ ending ˊˎ -

this was very quick, but i hope that you liked it! {and yes, its a oneshot from cheryls pov}.

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