Who I Am

I am deeply comionate and empathetic. My heart bleeds for the pains of the world, and I deeply desire to spread love, healing and grace. These are of the utmost importance to me. I like to draw, paint and sing. I read books, I love to play, and I value a spiritual life. I have a son and fiancé, and I love my family so much. Especially my son :blush: I believe firmly that being yourself and following what inspires you and lights you up is the key to both being happy and making the world around you a better place.

For what I can recall of my childhood things started out happy enough. I don't have many "real" memories, but I recall feeling loved, the bubbly feeling of laughter. Around when I was 10 things started to change. Life got very hard and painful in many ways, and my mental health was very poor. I struggled through next decade of my life, and then things really started to turn back around for me when my son was born. At first I suffered horrible Post Partum Depression and Anxiety but...nothing would have changed if I didn't go through everything falling apart. And now, my past defeats I see as victories in what I have learned. In how my personal experience allows me to understand in a way that I am more able to help people around me. More able to see the world through lenses of love and grace.

I want to change the world, and by my living and existing the world is already much different than it would be without me. Through depression and despair I have still managed to do much good with my life. And I know that the more I just be myself and do what makes me happy and feeling fulfilled I also make the world a better place. Being positive is not about ignoring or denying my negative experiences and emotions. Its about accepting them and embracing them. Loving ALL of myself and all of my life.